WLS UPDATE : GOAL REACHED

I don't know that I will hold this weight long but it was my pre-surigical goal. To meet this goal would mean that I have now lost 100% of my excess weight!

Going into this the surgeon warned me that I may never see true goal, or that it would/should take about 18-36 months to do so but through the progression of it all it was soon decided I would indeed see that goal.

They wanted me at 135lbs as an ideal weight before my reconstruction and tummy tuck because it is estimated that I am carrying about 20lbs of skin/sub q tissue. So at 135 - 20lbs tech its est. I would be about 115lbs.

Obviously thats too thin, so I don't get to play around with it. I get to try to maintain until I am fixed. Shouldn't be too hard though now that were trying to get pregnant I am sure I can keep/ put on a few pounds!

So as of this morning I think its safe to say I have met my weight goal! I've been floating around it for a couple of weeks now, trying to slow the loss down - but today looks like its here. This is what I found this morning on my scale.....

Now let me say that while I am confident enough to say I have met my goal weight - I am not confident but am truely honest enough to say that I have not met my medical, my mental or my health goals yet. It is taking a toll on me and totally taking its sweet time to all set in. I make poor choices day in and day out and I am trying so hard to break this now while I am a " newbie " before I end up right where I was. Don't say its not possible because its that attitude that does it in.

It is true that " Just 1 bite, or 1 cheat " can do you in... because it rarely stops at just 1. I have to break this cycle NOW!

Health wise - I am still working very hard on getting and staying healthy. I am making sure to take my vitamins daily, and medications. I am working on getting back on track as we work with the endo and the gyn to get pregnant and making sure all the decission I am making are for the best.

Mental wise - I still don't see me as this size, or beleive it. I still have alot of guilt and anger and more and more get the " wow " moments when I realize that I did help myself be unhealthy before. The actions are so clear in hindsight. I like to beat myself up over it though - not good!

So ----

For now I will end this update with this

Today, SATURDAY OCTOBER 17th, 6 months 2 weeks and 6 days since my life changed forever and I walked the new trail of this journey...

I have met my goal - Today I weight 135lbs!!

Daddy is hiding peanuts in the bathroom!?

Last week, we started our Thursday morning out like any other - a sleepy roo walks into our roo, slips into our bed to snuggle and daddy slips out the otherside to go to the bathroom ( and dress ;) ).
Daya until this point hasnt asked anything really, but this day she followed him, and inturn I follow her into the bathroom where she and I are quickly brushed out of there because daddy doesnt want her to see his " parts ".

I roll my eyes as this is a battle I often have, and swipe roo out of the bathroom - on our way out she askes me " Momma why daddy make - me leave the potty?" to which I hastely reply " Oh honey, daddy doesn't want you to see his penis! " Not even thinking about that ( we do try to use proper names of things ) I walked out ...

A minute later she was upset and comes to me and says " Momma daddy wont share his PEANUTS with us - I like PEANUTS - I want PEANUTS " Just carrying on because I said " PENIS " and she thinks I meants PEANUTS!!!
At first I thought she was getting the words confused... but then when we went in the bathroom she tried looking all over for these " peanuts " when she came up empty handed she says " Ugh - My daddy ate all the peanuts. Daddy need to share! "

So while one lesson has been learned here - theres 3 more to unfold.


Skip ahead a few days because I thought we would leave it at that ( and its super funny IMO ).
She is standing in her bathroom - I tell her to go to the potty. She says I did. I said no, you didnt.
She said yes see..... theres potty in the toilet. ( No paper and no flushing ) I said You didnt go now, but you must have because theres nasty in it and you didnt flush to which she got mad and replied " I DIDNT DO IT " cause now shes mad that I caught her not flushing so her story changed ( YES HAPPENS WITH ONLY CHILDREN TOO ) I said ( playing into her game ) then who did go and didn't flush .... she put her finger to her chin and with a cute thinking look says...

" MORGAN DID IT - HE HAS PEANUTS IN THE POTTY!!! "

I was laughing ( which happens alot lately ) and didn't know what to think - but we agreed as parents not to punish if it didnt happen right then, and if we couldnt stop laughing. We have to work on this...

I flushed. She went potty and still insisted it was Morgan - keep in mind he hadn't been here in a bit!

Lord --- I swear this kid is a nut herself!

3 year olds can drive?!

In the never ending adventures of Madaya todays chapter is this :

3 year olds can drive?!


I was missing my car keys. We knew it had been since Tuesday ( today was Friday ) but we couldn't place in our minds where I could have lost them along the way.
Our car key is around 500.00 to replace 1 remote ( which is the key itself ) and we knew we had to find them.
I literally tore apart the house looking inside and out. We checked the car, we called EVERY place we had been in the past 5 days and nothing.
I decided late in the afternoon I would try tearing apart roo's room - and when I did much to my suprise we found the keys, there dangling from her bed as they had caught on the slats that support her mattress. I pluck them down and ask her " why do you have mommy's keys? " to which she happily replied " I AM GOING TO GET A BABY SISTER! ". I said "so you can drive?! " she says " YES I AM BIGGER NOW - I am 3! "!

..... So apparently yes in her mind 3 year olds can drive! In my mind most 3 year olds would rather drive to chucky cheese, mcdonalds, the park etc... nope, not our 3 year old shes headed straight to the hospital!

Missing a peice

I am really missing a peice in my puzzle I know where this peice is but its often ( or i feel it is anyways ) unreachable...
I miss it alot and hope to place it again permantely soon but for now I hope this peice knows just how much more beautiful the picture is with it in its PLACE!
.... I hope it knows just how much its MISSED and how much it sucks to not have it here.

I hope I can still fit somwhere even when I feel I fit no where near the puzzle the peice is so busy with right now.

Here's to my missing peice! I miss you!

Head Check

Madaya got her birthmark checked today by the Dermo Dr.

He wasnt happy his office made us wait so long to get in! He checked her head with the UV light, seen some glowing cells - and said " we must do a deep core biopsy asap ".
He is really worried about a couple of the spots within the birthmark itself, along with the fact that her BM has been chaning so much. He said surgery would be major and he wants to be sure to know what it is or isnt before we move further.
The biopsy will be hard enough...

Madaya will be put out completely while they take the core sample, with some roots hopefully and then they will stitch her up and send us home.
It will be done in the Out patient surgery center at Advanced Dermatology in the Valley, by Dr. Dunn and we will have results in the week after.

Her procedure is scheduled for this wednesday at 1pm.

Wish us luck...

Sick - Sucks

The Pemberton- Evans home has been bit by the nasty bugs going around!
It started with me --- Sunday after Madaya's guest for her party went home. I was feeling tired all day, but then got a sore throught that night like out of the blue followed by a running nose, achy bones and the best yet drainage lots of it! Like a brick through a window it hit me!
I thought I had beaten it, and no one else would get it ( daya had it the week before ).

Lets skip forward a week - and GUESS WHO STILL HAS IT --- and who we've added to the pack?

Mike and Daya are both really sick and a little worse, with flu symptoms too!

Its hard to say where or when we got it since lord knows everyone has something right now, but it sucks none the less.

Grandpa was admitted to the hospital today too because he's fighting this as well!

Sick - SUCKS!

Birthday Pics

Here is a glimps of some of the Birthday fun from the party...

I will get more up and posted as I am feeling better - promise!

Flower balloons

Roo loves to open gifts - and is so thankful!

Roo and Daddy in the bouncey house

dig for prizes!

Some of the party people!

roo attacks momma in the bouncey

roo painting a flower pot

The brownie cake made by momma

I know..

I know several of you are waiting to see the party on here ... and it will happen.

Daya turned 3 on sunday and it was a weekend full of events. Not only her but victoria also had a big birthday/party so we were wiped... now this momma is sick sick.
So I promise soon I will get it up.

Thank you to everyone who shows how much they love her and just how much of a blessing she is to your lives as well as ours!

We are still in shock that our lil miracle roo is 3....

I get the giggles...

... Everytime I think " I JUST BOUGHT A PAIR OF PANTS FOR ME AT THE JBF SALE!!!!

Seriously, I went to the CHILDRENS sale, and ended up with a pair of jeans for me from the junior section- with room to spare. Too funny.


...... I GET THE GIGGLES!

Valleyfest

I took my neice victoria and Daya to valleyfest today... we had a lot of fun playing games, winning prizes, making crafts and snacking on some kettle corn!
(we also had fun at Toys R Us for geoffrey giraffee's birthday party before we went! )

The birthday girls ( oct 4th! ) in the birthday parade at Toys-R-Us.

Me and the girls

Sooo cute!