play - doh doh's

What is there to say?

I dont know who leads who! Doh' Dohs!

They had fun though!

I swear...

I would totally lose my mind if it werent contained in my head.

Ive lost my Cell Phone!!

I know where : The Valley Mall Theatre.
I know when : Sunday January 4th around 9pm.

I coulda sworn I used it on the way home though...
But I dont know where it is now... I looked everywhere.

Ugh.


Update : Found it .... Daya had been playing house with it apparently, maybe because all 5 of her phones arent enough? At anyrate happy to have it safe and sound. Now we can turn it back on.

Allergies Smalergies

UGH.

So for 4.5 hours we sat at the Spokane Allergy and Asthma Clinic today waiting for the answers we so desperately have been waiting for...
and we got them, but guess what?

WE ALREADY KNEW THEM!!!

LOL -

Short story:

Madaya had 104 test's done on the skin today.
At the end it came back that shes allergic to : Yellow Dies, Red Dies, and Cantelope.
Also sensitive were rhined melons, pears, fructose.
so that explains ALOT.
we will try to control them by adjusting what she eats/drinks.

now for her " suspected environmental allergies " shes not allergic to anything outside, but she has a issue called " NARES " . There are live cells in her nasal cavity which are sensitive to things, and set off an immune system flare via histimine increases. The treatment is 6-8 weeks of steroids squirted up her nose :) Fun huh?!

So... happy to have some answers. She needs more testing but cant until the 6-8 week mark. She follows up in late feb. We will address some more then.

Marley & Me like Kaydough & I

"A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes. Status symbol means nothing to him. A waterlogged stick will do just fine. A dog judges others not by their color or creed or class but by who they are inside. A dog doesn't care if you are rich or poor, educated or illiterate, clever or dull. Give him your heart and he will give you his. It was really quite simple, and yet we humans, so much wiser and more sophisticated, have always had trouble figuring out what really counts and what does not. As I wrote that farewell column to Marley, I realized it was all right there in front of us, if only we opened our eyes. Sometimes it took a dog with bad breath, worse manners, and pure intentions to help us see."
— John Grogan

( This qoute comes from the book - not the movie - but the movie is very close in words. )


Lastnight we took roo to see Marley and Me. She has been asking for weeks having seen the darn previews on Tv. I read the book the other day online ( ill spare details as much as possible - because i know some are still reading it ) so that I knew what the rave was about. I can say now the book by far is better than the movie was, none the less though despite leaving some very important peices out,
The movie suprisingly was close to the book, but I also think movies always have a way of bringing out the emotion.
At anyrate...
Upon arriving at the theatre we got our tickets went and walked down the long hall hearing daya tell everyone " me see marley me see marley " and then getting to our seats. She was so beyond excited.
As the movie started I thought - lord I wasted money - I read the book, why bother this is the same - HA not the case.
Daya was in awe of the funnies the dog did, and I was filled with emotion and thought of her own personal on goings with our Kaydough.

Marley & Me the movie is very cute, but again, I would say the book is by far the superior - I would have loved to read the original news colomns, John wrote.

Having said that,
By end of movie I just wanted to bawl - not to much from "Marley's memories"
but more so what I am facing.

Mike and I have agreed its time to put Kaydough down. And it all just hit home.
This decission isnt coming easy, its been long, tough and is so much more than I had thought and after seeing this movie I coulda wrote it myself. So sad, yet so true

" Only a dog can love a human so loyally. With no care of material belongings, homes, cars or designer labels, but with only pure honest love. "

Kaydough has been so much to us. Hes been sick from the start - but its been so much fun.
hes brought laughs in times when we thought we couldnt laugh. Hes kept me warm on my coldest nights. Hes a best friend when others leave and hes always there to lean on when the tears start to fall. All these things and more make all the bad not so bad at all ...

He can eat one more pair of dirty undies, he can chew 2 more brand new robies shoes at 30.00 a pair, he can get hair on each and everything I own, and smell the house up like no other because " hes bubba. My baby. " .

I dont know how I will get through this - only that its a must.
Hes in pain hes suffering and its just not fair to any of us....


Marley & me like Kaydough & I.

" Poop " goes the weassel

yes I said POOP. ( Thanks Editor - for your concern ;) ).

Madaya has this potty thing down. Were in big girl panties all day each day - minus the trips in the car, and night time when she has a " go pantie " ( diaper ) on. She still keeps them dry - but its a peace of mind for me if anything.

Well....
Today is another story.
Poop goes the weassel fits because madaya is a weassel lately. Today she managed not once, not twice but three times to " pooper her pannies momma " and manage to do so BEFORE actually making it to the toilet. It makes me sooo mad.
She knows shes going to go - she says so - but yes does it.
Its only #2 that she does this with - as #1 is usually right on target.

I told her if she was gonna keep pooping her her " pannies " we have to give them to a big girl, and she can wear baby diapers. To which she replied...

" No momma Elmo POOPED! " as in HER ELMO PANNIES POOPED THEMSELVES.

Im not going to ask whats next!

WLS UPDATE : Sleep Study

I go for my sleep study tonight. Im kinda excited, but nervous. I check in at 7pm, get all hooked up then SLEEP. LOL or lack of.

The next step in the surgery pre-op's is my GI scan, and labs. THEN IM READY!!!
Hopefully insurance gives the answer this coming week as well - but still should be fine.

I soooo cant wait to be a loser!

Happy New Year

Welcome 2009.

I hope that each and everyone of you find your peace, happiness and welbeing this coming year.
Its gotta be better than the last - and its going to be what you make of it.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

let it go?

The therapist says that if I am going to be successful that I need to let the little things that are bugging me go.
He says I have no way of knowing exactly what impact that things are going to make until surgery is said and done with and that my next few miles of this journey only get harder.
He says that this type of life changing even thins out the weak and strengthens the strong. So true I am sure but sad none the less.

So, I ask what happens when some of it that bugging you - you just dont want to let go cause you still want better? Do you just let it go and see what happens? or write it off the loss you kinda think, but hate that it will be?

He says that the people who change the most arent those who go through the journey its those who go trough it with you, or choose the side roads. Now im worried...

I have 3 more visits before my surgery can be approved.

Christmas take 2

Yesterday we had Mike's side of the family Christmas get together. We planned to meet at the same place we did for thanksgiving ( ryans club house at his apartments ) on sunday after christmas to allow for us all to have our normal christmas plans.

Come this week we were upset/ saddened to learn that steven and becky would not be making it because of the snow?!

Mike and I were looking forward to it, as Thanksgiving was done this way as well and it worked out so nicely.
Things with his family arent normal at all - but in recent months have been more calm.
Things were so nice, and so laid back. Mike really needs this and for him and Madaya I support it.

It really kind of bugs me to think that his side made things more pleasant than some of my family plans this year. I mean seriously.
No drama is kinda nice.
No one made anyone feel bad for wanting --- no scratch that NEEDING ( it really was a need ) to be somewhere else for a while, or for not helping, doing, etc. And NO WORK!!!

Although my family get togethers were nice, I just think this was a lil nicer, and I never expected it.
Maybe because everyone is so happy lately?

Danielle is soon to be married, and a new momma. Shes absolutely glowing and loving life. We have had our differences thats for sure, and are not close but I am happy for her and the strides shes taken. She has a lot on her plate, and shes still trying to balance it all.

Selina has had a busy busy year, and often bites off more than she should chew, yet always manages to swallow. And I think her and Jeff are finally in a comfy spot in life - something she admits they have been working together very hard on - it shows.

Mike and I are together, and happy. Treating each other with the love and respect we each deserve and enjoying the time we get to be together. Its so nice to be here in this moment rather than in the moment that he comes home for one day :)

Really ... things are just at peace.

Steve and Lisa did not come over for either of the holidays but did visit and share time with us all in october. Lisa is hurt and cant travel - but we know their thoughts were there

Christy is stuck in Canada, and we worry much of her. We would all love to see her back home with some of us in the states, but I dont think thats going to be happening anytime soon. We worry of her all around health and well being and hopefully soon will hear/ see some much needed improvement there on many levels. We love her and wish her the best.

The extended family doesnt/ hasnt been together in a long time - and that wasnt different this year although weve spoken to many and all are well :)

With that side of the family there is no gifts exchanges or anything to worry of and that rounded out a good time together of playing games, visiting and eating ...

Christmas take 2 was good.

And ...

ALL DONE NOW!!!

( ill post pics as I get them )

Do they have a secret meeting place?

I have this friend on one of my internet boards. Weve met a few times IRL ( in real life ) and shes simply a doll.
Shes been happily married for 11 years and is momma to 4 kids ( I will keep their names private ) . I asked her if I can blog her story and shes given me her blessing.

Things have been tense lately but her and DH ( dear hubby ) have been trying for baby #5 and going through some major losses : her mom just died, his mom is in hospital, and they lost a cousin in iraq in October. So she just wrote it all off to that.
Well.... Christmas morning apparently DH was getting ready to leave the house when E ( name private ) , asked him where he was going, after all its christmas morning right.. to which he calmly replies " Tell the kids I will see them later, I have things to get done " Well she inquired a little more only to get the real reason. <> DH isnt so " dear " hes been living 2 lifes. Hes been with this MAN named B, for about 3 years and is tired of living the lie. He is leaving his wife and 4 young kids who are 7, 3, 2 and soon to be 1! for this man who apparently also is leaving his new bride and baby to be happily ever after - CHRISTMAS MORNING.

Ill skip her sad details as that news itself was hard to hear and I wanted to break in 2 for her - and jump right to my title.

How the hell does this happen. Do these guys have a secret meeting place? How do they go about it? Do they take an add out " Hi Im X, and married to my wife of 11 years. We have 4 kids. I have a great job, she has it hard at home... and im wanting something new - you? "
Or maybe it says " Dumb ass looking for a male peice of ass ? " Grrr... whatever and however it is done.. why? I totally get some people just need something more, or someone else... etc. I totally get that some people are just " gay " . Ok fine. Its your choice.
I get the not wanting to lie to E anymore. She deserves to know but not like this. What makes this man so special.
Its hard enough when a man leaves his wife but in E's own words " Imagine the pain knowing hes leaving the cat for a male chicken! "

E - I know your reading this. And Im so sorry for you. If theres anything I/we can do ( including and not limited to finding this " happy couple " and making life a lil more real :) ) Let us know. Your strong, amazing and I wish you still lived here cause I would so be there to be that shoulder I know your longing for!. Maybe soon youll be restationed and then can pick the peices up?
Until then know that this is nothing you did, deserve or asked for - your amazing and god will see you through this too

And to the happy new dip sticks.... Happy humping. Hope your happy :)
Find yourselves before trying to find anyone else and good