Warm and snuggly after a play in the snow!

Our fine feathered FRRRRREEEEZING FRIENDS!
( Daya has been so mad at these birds for messing up HER SNOW )

let it snow let it snow let it snow

DID SOMEONE SAY SNOW?!

The song says, " The weather outside is frightful.... "
so does most of our city! We say WE LOVE it!!

The entire city of Spokane and Spokane Valley is literally shut down today - except emergency crews ( which are at a minimum, and plows ) thanks to a huge snow storm that began December 17th, Yesterday.
We got about 22" so far ... its been a little more than 24 hours. I cant recall a snow fall like this in many years, I was about 5-6 when I made snow forts :) They say its falling at a rate of 1" per hour now and theres more coming through the weekend off and on - wow!

They are begging people to stay in, or go out and help shovel - DONT DRIVE. Theres many businesses closed, including malls and doctors offices even. Just not good news.

Its kind of funny to hear everyone complain about it cause it doesnt faze me at all - infact the only thing it fazed is they shut the hospital down to all but emergencies so ...
I CANT have my 101 with the surgeon for my WLS today :( ( and it may be up to 4 weeks before they can get me in again - sigh ) .
We took madaya out today to see what she thought. Keep in mind shes 31" tall. It made for a fun time. Heres our pics...

we werent the only ones out playing :) - we spotted a birdie too - daya said Birdy Brrrrr!

Whats the reason this time?

So were firm beleivers that EVERYTHING happens for a reason, right?

I am so quickly begining to think thats wrong!

Weve been dealt some awful stuff over the last few years, and then just when we think things are going ok, we can think about re-building our dreams in time, and have hope for a brighter way...

Something else shitty happen.
Yesterday mike was laid off.
Hes a mess, Hes blambing himself and we dont know where to start. Its purely in God's hands, as were both looking for work now and trying to figure out the best way to go about stuff.


Keep the faith!

Ooohhhh Were gonna "DUE" it!

Yeah thats right were gonna due it, and due it and due it till we cant due it anymore!!

Were gonna be so full, and tired of due'n it were all gonna sit and complain for hours about how full we are.
Then we may wanna due it one more time, only this time with CHOCOLATE ( which yes, to me is weird that im liking it so much ) .

WERE GOING TO HAVE FONDUE tomarrow night.
Its what I chose for my Birtday dinner and were ALL due'n it and the Melting Pot - check out http://www.meltingpot.com/

Theres 12 of us so im sure it will be fun - the more the merrier.
And theres nothing better than due'n it together :)

...

I am just so frustrated with her

She knows it I am sure. Ive said it to her.
I just dont want it to be an issue.
I just dont want it to be more than it is...
I just worry.
Wonder.... wait.

Slow down I think about her, Take it all in,
Relax and know that they are loved and that the more they push the more others push them away.

I enjoy the time I have with them, let that time be good!
Dont complicate things.

I tell my mind to NOT THINK ABOUT THIS its just the way she is. I vent it out and move past it... only to find something new the next day.
Just LIVE I think about her.
JUST......... JUST...... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH scream.

WLS update

Tonight I went to another meeting, this one was a new place ( rockwood/Sacred Heart ) as you will recall I am switching programs after the feeling that the other just isnt where I want to be.
I was elated today to find out about this surgeon who has come so highly recomended and to hear another point of view.
I am now more than ever ready for this tool, to be placed. I am ready for the journey to keep making its road clear to me and get to the spot where I can sit in the trees look down my path and think wow - I made each turn so perfectly.

Ok so maybe in a perfect world that will happen, but in our world, not likely. It will however, be what I make it to be. Im in controll.

I learned some things today that have me feeling very peacefull, and although this surgeon presented us with tons of info its as if he was speaking to me. I would think its cause it all hits so close to home.

My mom has been a wonderful support. Shes been to some meetings with me, and although I know she struggles with the thought of me doing this, shes so happy that I have a chance at shedding some of my medical problems.
My aunt with with us today -and although I am not sure if she went to learn about it, support me or maybe to think about it for herself , when we walked out she told me I was brave, and she didnt realize theres so much to it, and she couldnt do it herself.

Shes right - its not for everyone.
You know my worries and that i have heard from many about it being the easy way out - HA theres NOTHING easy about any of this journey and the surgery to place the tool is no different.

I am now waiting to meet with the surgeon 101 and praying for a surgery date mid january. However insurance can * CAN * take up to 6 months. Im hoping since ive been on this path, and lot of it was done, it call all roll on?
We will see...


until next time....

Too close..

... Christmas that is, its just coming too fast and its much too close. At first I was so excited. but lately some people and events have me a bit down. Im trying not to give into the whole " bah humbug thing, but you know, its tempting.
I hate the greed that some people get, and the competitiveness to get the right gift many seem to take on.
IT ALL DRIVES ME NUTS and is the main reason we dont participate in such things. Its not at all what the holi ( GET THAT HOLY ) day, is about!
At anyrate ill stop the rant.
Christmas is a mere 14 days away, we have yet to shop - and yet to get our cards out. Both of which will happen this week.
Oops... the photographer :) hasnt even done OUR photos yet.
Good news though - selina's are done : ) and awesome if i do say so myself -You can see them on the business blog soon, but I will work on daya and ours this weekend.

For now... heres a couple.

As you can see - shes a tough model :)

Ill update soon... 14 days and counting WOW

Thankful for these pics

Here are some pics of our thanksgiving(s).

We had my family on Thursday, and Mikes on Sunday. They both were so wonderful. Honestly I cannot remember in recent years a Holiday so nice! Im hoping for Christmas as well to be as wonderful.

- These arent even edited. Arent you proud of me? Im lazy!

Daya after a hard dirty day of play with her cousins - Sunday

Daya loves Daddy ---- taking a break for some Cheese-E-ness

Morgan and Daya playing Cow races on our Wii - Sunday

Yes - they tasted as great as they look - Sunday

Thursday Selina and I helped the kids to crafts - Christmas count downs!

The bird after a hot oil bath ! - Thursday

Mike giving me the " bird! " - Thursday

Toria loves Aunt Dee's new GIZMO!!! ( her pup )

Our brand new nephew - " Jo Jo " yes - he's that sweet!

The " Giz "

WLS update

Seen my Endo today ( Dr. Laurier )

She said my thyroid is finally balance - at 225mcg levoxyl and 25mg cytomel. Everything else looks great and she signed off the labs for my surgery!! Shes still on board and ready to go.
I have gained 12lbs though so?! Who knows ... but even better for the dr's to figgy out.
I see the surgeons the 11th!

playing with the HAND hes been dealt

... Mike had a Indipendant Exam for his Right hand ( the L&I ) claim about 4 weeks ago, as planned by the department L&I. During this exam Mike told the Dr. that his hand was still very sore, and didnt have much of the feeling it used to. This has been Mikes complaint since the original surgery! Well - the IME Dr refeffered Mike to the Nuerologist and we went home waiting to hear from L&I. Skip forward to yesterday we get a call at 10 am asking if he can be at the nuerologist by 4pm - to which he said yes.

We get to the Neuro office and he goes to see the Dr, only to come out 30 minutes later looking oh so sad..


The Neuro said his hand is deffinatly not right, and that the nerves arent hearing/sending anything they should be. That use of it is very limited at best, and will most likely keep deteriorating with out surgery to try to repair the nerves. Surgery in itself is risky and can leave the hand useless. The Dr said without the surgery however, it will most likely get to that point any how.
so, were waiting again for L&I to make the next move but for now theres no settlement ( were still pending ) and mike will be off work approx 6 months is the guess if he has to try to repair the nerves.

Were very unsure as to what this means, and esp since we dont know yet how much or when $$ will come from L&I.

He keeps on playing with the hand hes been delt, but praying for a better one soon!