Yesterday Today and Tomorrow

Welcome once again to a re-done reorganized blog... big changes in store.

Origininally a few years ago I started this blog through a hard time, evolved it into a family blog, and now will reclaim this as primarily my blog.

It is truely my Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.



The man I love, and was married to for close to 10 years has again decided to leave us. So with this please deal with me as we transition and find our wings.



Please keep any and all comments nice - as I do not have hard feelings at this time to him - only confusion, frustration and hurt.



Keep reading - this will be great therapy!!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

My personal favs!

These made the cut for my favs :)
Enjoy!





Oh Wow...

Oh wow, Why?

Because I AM SOOOOOO READY to go on vacay again and we just got home. Litterally!



Madaya, Grammy and I had a blast in Beaverton/Portland this weekend.

Theres too much to type - but trust me when I said we had a blast. I even got spoiled with a dry hydro massage... OMG is all I have to say about that. I loved each second of every minute of the 20 minute new love affair!
We went to Maltnoma falls on the way down, then the fish hatchery/feeding station and then the Portland Oregon Zoo, Seaside Oregon to the beach... and just hung out.



Cant wait to go on our vacay in AUGUST!!!

Enjoy these photos :) Via slide show in the posts to follow!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

WLS Update : 3 Months Post Op

Today marks my 3 month post op day :).
Its really hard to beleive ( most of the time ) that its been 3 months already, but in many ways it shows.
I am still " so new " at all of this and learning more each day that in the same 3 months that seems its been forever it really does seem like just yesterday.
3 months isnt far into it at all.

At this point I am down to 160lbs. I run around 158-159 but Im going with 160 because I think it leaves a little margin there for my frequent errors ;).
I wear a size 12/14 pants and a XL ( 14/16) top. My body is disgusting to me more and more each day and I am having a very hard time coping with the rapid change of it all.
My phsyco says this is normal, and I am doing well... I beg to differ!
60+ lbs in 3 months is hard!!! VERY HARD!! in more ways than I ever EVER imagined. Someday I hope I can see, and say oh... wow, that was fun but today wont be it.

I struggle to eat properly, drink enough and best yet--- remember to take ALL my vitamins. Im working daily on these goals.
I feel fabulous though about my health and even with all going on its been an amazing journey and I would do it again in a heart beat.

I just got to the ok to start toning, so Im doing that now that will help in many ways. More than anything I am trying to heal mentally from what this has been doing to me. Wow - who woulda thought?!
No one can warn you of these things!

I need to go for now, but thats the semi-update. I see my surgeon's team on July 14th and will give the official ( but late ) 3 month update then!



Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Am I exausted?! Or out of my mind..

Either way ... I dont like it in the least.

The past couple of weeks Ive been so nutty busy its not funny. We all have - its been go go go go and then go!



Were mid Bankruptcy now, and for those of you who dont know - the new BR laws suck ass! Seriously as if it wasnt hard enough before now its full of debt management classes, counseling, budgets, paperwork and oh yeah STRESS AND MONEY ... ironic ?!

With that and everything else that weve been dealing with ( mainly house work, yard work, work etc ) I am just feeling overwhelmed and tired.



Mike is home alot these days and I hate the time he is away... this leads me to the thought that anxiety is playing a game with me too. This week we will be leaving for seperate adventures and I am kinda nervous about being away that long without him. It will be the first in a very very long time.



I made an apt with my phsyco for Wed @ 11:30 in hopes she can shed some light on things.


With all of this stuff my health is failing and thats not a good healthy place for me to be. I cant take care of roo and Mike if I cant take care of myself. I have to get back on track... I have to breath...



Breath...



Breath...



Am I out of my mind? Or just Exausted?!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Fathers Day

Today was a busy - wonderful day.
We had hoped for something slow, nice and just kinda whatever - but life happend.
We got up today ( Mike had made it home early so was able to sleep a few hours ) and gave daddy his gifts. Then we decided we would meet grandpa for lunch in town, and go get roo's swingset.
So we had some time to kill and thats what we did... killed time :). We went to the mall to get our walk in. Then to get the swingset then home.
It was just an off day but all in all a wonderful one.
The best part is always seeing mike with madaya. This is what makes him such a great daddy. She loved to give him his card she made, and the gift she picked out, and was all about hugging him and saying " I love you sooooo much daddy " " Happy fathers day " . Melts my heart just to think about it.
Really she is so lucky to have such a good daddy! Im blessed to be married to such a wonderful partner too!
Happy Fathers day sweetheart!!!









Friday, June 19, 2009

... Yeah .... I know....

OK guys I get the point, You want updates!
Well there hasn't really been much to " update " on so I haven't been updating you. You can stop emailing because if something were going on I would tell you.
Were actually all really well. Just busy.
We normally arent this busy, but lately good lord... I dont think Mike or I get a chance to breath.
Mike is home Wed-Friday and then again on Sundays. We have been super busy in our yard, and getting it up to par and the garden in. It comsumes much of his days off. He has also been working on his sleeve tattoo on his left arm so that also takes some time - which he enjoys because its time with the " guys ".
Daya is doing great. Shes changing more and more each day. Shes such a big girl!
She is learning, laughing and loving more and more too. She recently got a " bike " ( which is just a little 3 wheel plastic ride on ) and shes liking that alot. She cant reach the peddles, cause shes so darn short but she uses her feet and scoots along!
We are interviewing pre-schools for the fall - and shes having fun talking about " school " and all that comes with it.
As for me, I am doing well. As you can imagine keeping up with a soon to be 3 year old ( gulp - I cant beleive that ) and my busy hubby isnt always easy but it does keep me hopping.
Health wise I am struggling. I am dehydrated and fighting hard to get back on top. Not easy when you have had this surgery.
I am down to about 165lbs though - which is a loss somewhere around 60lbs.
My sister in law was just laughing at me today because I still buy clothes in my old size. I just dont think about it.
I know I know ... Its all in my head.
Other than that things are good....

Madaya and I are headed to Portland next week for 4 days to celebrate Shelby's 16th birthday it should be fun the beach, the zoo and even a birthday party is on schedule. Daddy wont be joining us as hes going with the " guys " to a motorcycle party/rally. I am so happy hes going, but will miss him terribly.
Its amazing how much I hate being away from him now that were always together!

In other news...

Oh wait - there is none.
Stay tuned.

Im tuning out now and going to bed... Theres your update :).


( seriously though we do love that some of you email to check on us. Thank you it means alot to know you care near and far (( hugs )). )

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Upper Class







... Or at least daya thinks so!




Originally when we bought daya's bed we bought it because its her dream bed. Well we bought it used ( see our post on here about it ) and it was a natural wood color with red tents... we made due because for 125.00 we just couldnt pass it up.



Well...



We found her DREAM bed this week for the same 125.00 on craigslist but it was complete ... Completely what she wanted that is.



We bought it, assembled it and sold her other - now she thinks shes really something (( shh dont tell her she is! ).