I know Its been awhile since ive blogged so i guess I will bring you up to date on my new goals for 2008!
Bringing you up to date on my goals..
LOL.. theres no change.
Goals still the same. I need to get a move on!
1. Live happier and healthier - this included the last 40 I need to get off.
2. Organize my life, home and heart - i know - challanging
3. BREATH and remember thaat theres always someone somwhere, who has it worse - Im doing good with this!
4. Be proactive - Im good at this too
5. GET OUT OF THE HOUSE MORE, and spend time doing what I love.
6. Try 1 new thing each month... um, not doing to hot yet.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Another Angel BABY :(
Where to I begin?
I guess with .... Before some of you hear this through the grapevine, i think you should know mike and I are dealing with another loss.
Its been confirmed ( very small chance baby could make it ) that a lil angel of ours will not be joining us in November.
I know I know.. your saying : why didnt they tell us?!
Well honestly a combination of things... 1.) We werent trying. 2.) We didnt know until i was " late " by about 2 weeks. I didnt think anything of it, as I just went off the pill,never cycle normally and have been dealing with other crap etc. I tested ++ at home and then had blood done. blood test says pregnant but levels arent good. ( this isnt uncommon for me and has happend alot ) then theres 3.) we really do want another year or two between the kiddos. While I am excited and open to it Mike really would like to wait and has many reservations.
We had hopes of not telling anyone till about 10+ weeks. and its things that happen like this for our reasoning - however some have asked, so there you have it.
Ironicly this lil bean woulda been due Nov 2, and had baby around 35 weeks on or before oct 4th! Same time as daya, along with the last 3 babies weve lost. I seem to be fertile in february and apparently must keep michael away ;)
We were not trying, are not trying, and really are not ready for another but it doesnt lesson the blow any!
Looks like angel 10 is sure to have good things in store for us to come.
** dont say sorry... its only a blog! **
I guess with .... Before some of you hear this through the grapevine, i think you should know mike and I are dealing with another loss.
Its been confirmed ( very small chance baby could make it ) that a lil angel of ours will not be joining us in November.
I know I know.. your saying : why didnt they tell us?!
Well honestly a combination of things... 1.) We werent trying. 2.) We didnt know until i was " late " by about 2 weeks. I didnt think anything of it, as I just went off the pill,never cycle normally and have been dealing with other crap etc. I tested ++ at home and then had blood done. blood test says pregnant but levels arent good. ( this isnt uncommon for me and has happend alot ) then theres 3.) we really do want another year or two between the kiddos. While I am excited and open to it Mike really would like to wait and has many reservations.
We had hopes of not telling anyone till about 10+ weeks. and its things that happen like this for our reasoning - however some have asked, so there you have it.
Ironicly this lil bean woulda been due Nov 2, and had baby around 35 weeks on or before oct 4th! Same time as daya, along with the last 3 babies weve lost. I seem to be fertile in february and apparently must keep michael away ;)
We were not trying, are not trying, and really are not ready for another but it doesnt lesson the blow any!
Looks like angel 10 is sure to have good things in store for us to come.
** dont say sorry... its only a blog! **
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Doin IT!
OK so many of you tell me all the time im wasting my talents and giving too much away for free... so im finally gonna do it professionally.
Im working on a new website, but right now doing private design, photos and more for friends and family,
Soon will offer it to the public as well.
( if you have a referal I will work with them now )
If theres anything you need :
Digital Graphics and/or Editing
Photography : Newborn, Children, Family, Pregnancy, Nature
Custom Invites : Birthday, Graduation, Holiday . Etc
Custom Announcements : Birthday, Graduation, New baby, Adoption, Engagement Etc.
Digital Scrap Layouts
and More..
* all Invites, and announcments avail in many sizes and include envelopes!
100% Satisfaction is what I can promise, along with low cost, and completely involving you in the decissions its your occasion.
EvansEyes is now Open :)
EvansEyes Documents, Photos, Layouts and More are Copyrighted. Without my permission is is illegal to be copied, re-posted or sold. For my customers, a release of their photos will be issued.
You can check me out at www.EvansEyesDesigns.com
Im working on a new website, but right now doing private design, photos and more for friends and family,
Soon will offer it to the public as well.
( if you have a referal I will work with them now )
If theres anything you need :
Digital Graphics and/or Editing
Photography : Newborn, Children, Family, Pregnancy, Nature
Custom Invites : Birthday, Graduation, Holiday . Etc
Custom Announcements : Birthday, Graduation, New baby, Adoption, Engagement Etc.
Digital Scrap Layouts
and More..
* all Invites, and announcments avail in many sizes and include envelopes!
100% Satisfaction is what I can promise, along with low cost, and completely involving you in the decissions its your occasion.
EvansEyes is now Open :)
EvansEyes Documents, Photos, Layouts and More are Copyrighted. Without my permission is is illegal to be copied, re-posted or sold. For my customers, a release of their photos will be issued.
You can check me out at www.EvansEyesDesigns.com
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Monday, February 11, 2008
update on the party drama.. lol
the update you drama hounds ( ONLY KIDDING ) wanted... regarding the PARTY mess.
Ok so thanks for the emails, and stuff it was reassuring.
I kinda just came down to the conclusion that although i felt horrible for my nephew, I would go spend private time with him before his party, and then the next day for cake with him.
It worked out in that matter only.
If they want to celebrate that way ... great. Its her/their lift. And all of us who had to go on with out it, I guess can deal with it in our own way. I never wanna be looked at as doing something i said i wouldnt etc.. or being hypocritical and for me to go woulda been just that.
Whats funny, is over the past few days are all the suggestions, comments and such really do vary. From way to go.. to How sad... to god knows what. I did what I know in my heart to be right, and only hope in the future when and if she asks for party advice she takes into consideration the time, lifes and others of her family so that they can do things too! Theres many who really do love nathan, and woulda loved to be there. Live and Learn?!
* Oh and for the 1 who asked ( youll know who you are ) NO!!! this is not the only issue. We have alot of history! And I am honest with her, she knows where I stand.
Ok so thanks for the emails, and stuff it was reassuring.
I kinda just came down to the conclusion that although i felt horrible for my nephew, I would go spend private time with him before his party, and then the next day for cake with him.
It worked out in that matter only.
If they want to celebrate that way ... great. Its her/their lift. And all of us who had to go on with out it, I guess can deal with it in our own way. I never wanna be looked at as doing something i said i wouldnt etc.. or being hypocritical and for me to go woulda been just that.
Whats funny, is over the past few days are all the suggestions, comments and such really do vary. From way to go.. to How sad... to god knows what. I did what I know in my heart to be right, and only hope in the future when and if she asks for party advice she takes into consideration the time, lifes and others of her family so that they can do things too! Theres many who really do love nathan, and woulda loved to be there. Live and Learn?!
* Oh and for the 1 who asked ( youll know who you are ) NO!!! this is not the only issue. We have alot of history! And I am honest with her, she knows where I stand.
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Party mess
Totally and completely Confused?! Annoyed Even?
I just needed to blog a minute and get this off my mind, cause apparently its on it way tooooooo much.
Im a mess at the moment and I feel so weird.
First off I think im Annoyed... then i think im Hurt, Sad, Worried, so Ill sum it up with CONFUSED!! A whole mix of emotions.
My nephew just turned 3 this week and we were hoping to go to his b-day party however my sister decided that a party at chucky cheese at 8, yes i said 8!! pm would be appropriate for saturday night. That whats sad is i would love to go but daya has no right being there playing that late and try to get to bed by 10. It winds me up its sure to wind her up. Im sad that we have to miss it and worried that my nephew will think we just dont want to be there? How untrue... Meanwhile hes way to young to understand what and why! His mom makes me mad, she knew thats not a good time for many many reasons for many people yet insists on it. So rather than a party looks like it will be a family dinner for them, which hey, ok they are used to it.
Ive been questioned as to why i can take daya to applebees at 9pm during the week but not chucky cheese. First off ANY parent would agree that being hyper before bed is NOT ideal. Second off Daya does not run around on a sugar high at 9 pm at applbees. Infact.. i havent gone last week cause i feel its more of a trouble than worth.. shes been a mess while out, a complete loud mouth, and just doesnt unwind when we get home.
Althought it breaks my heart I have to keep grounded that Honestly this is a silly move, and its just not a logical " party " time for a childs birthday.
Ok then im gonna tread into this deeper water here.... Bear with me as my thoughts are scattered. Some of the comments to me have been about we " have excuses " " talk about/ down of " my sister and her family... of which i openly admit i have many " downs" on them however when i choose to stand my ground on some issues and people tell me this it usually hits me cause i dont get the fact that some of these people are also ones who say stuff, but then do a 180?! i dont get it... and dont want to understand it fully it just hurts that this is exactly why shes gotten the way she is... no one does what they say, or says what they mean. PERIOD. GRRRR... I dunno
ill end for now...
I just needed to blog a minute and get this off my mind, cause apparently its on it way tooooooo much.
Im a mess at the moment and I feel so weird.
First off I think im Annoyed... then i think im Hurt, Sad, Worried, so Ill sum it up with CONFUSED!! A whole mix of emotions.
My nephew just turned 3 this week and we were hoping to go to his b-day party however my sister decided that a party at chucky cheese at 8, yes i said 8!! pm would be appropriate for saturday night. That whats sad is i would love to go but daya has no right being there playing that late and try to get to bed by 10. It winds me up its sure to wind her up. Im sad that we have to miss it and worried that my nephew will think we just dont want to be there? How untrue... Meanwhile hes way to young to understand what and why! His mom makes me mad, she knew thats not a good time for many many reasons for many people yet insists on it. So rather than a party looks like it will be a family dinner for them, which hey, ok they are used to it.
Ive been questioned as to why i can take daya to applebees at 9pm during the week but not chucky cheese. First off ANY parent would agree that being hyper before bed is NOT ideal. Second off Daya does not run around on a sugar high at 9 pm at applbees. Infact.. i havent gone last week cause i feel its more of a trouble than worth.. shes been a mess while out, a complete loud mouth, and just doesnt unwind when we get home.
Althought it breaks my heart I have to keep grounded that Honestly this is a silly move, and its just not a logical " party " time for a childs birthday.
Ok then im gonna tread into this deeper water here.... Bear with me as my thoughts are scattered. Some of the comments to me have been about we " have excuses " " talk about/ down of " my sister and her family... of which i openly admit i have many " downs" on them however when i choose to stand my ground on some issues and people tell me this it usually hits me cause i dont get the fact that some of these people are also ones who say stuff, but then do a 180?! i dont get it... and dont want to understand it fully it just hurts that this is exactly why shes gotten the way she is... no one does what they say, or says what they mean. PERIOD. GRRRR... I dunno
ill end for now...
Monday, January 21, 2008
SICK! This is why I dont like this world
Sick world...
I just had to get some stuff off my mind before i can go back to bed.
I stayed up tonight to hear the news, because earlier my Aunt Ann had called to say that she was upset cause there were police and such taking photos in her neighbors house and she had a bad feeling... KXLY was on scene so i waited to see.
Her bad feeling came to light. They announced her Neighbor ( im keeping her name private cause it hasnt been released ) / friend was murdered in her own home, apparently by her live in friend. - investigation on going -
What the hell?
This comes after a weird turn of events around here anyways. You all know i HATE full moons. too many sicko's and weird things happen. It all started Friday - the school across the street from me was locked down, while they searched for a man with a gun, who said he was going to kill his ex girlfriend and himself and then later that morning they found, There was a 25 y.o. man who shot himself and was found about oh i dunno... 500 feet from my house, in the school yard. Wasnt fun to watch unfold, and I was creeped out thinking THIS HAPPENS? in real life....
Then Saturday and Sunday I just felt Off. Just Off
Then Today this... Sucks. My aunt, the one who lives next to ________, who was just killed. Is sensitive to this all anyways because a couple of years ago she found her other neighbor and close friend dead in his room, he had shot himself. So of course her mind is filled with bad things anytime theres cops, ambulances etc around her home... it just breaks my heart to think that this world really is this damn sick!! and the impacts on even the sometimes the most distant people really are astranomical sometimes. Its just a unfortunate turn of events, that makes you stop and think... wow, what next?!
SICK SICK SICK!!!
ugh - i dunno rather to be mad, sad or indifferent.
Tonights Sadness : My wish is that ________ May rest in peace. No matter her life circumstances, and some peoples opinions of her ______, was a wonderful caring person. She put others first, and truely did try to be better for herself. Sometimes people are just cut too short. And in this case, given the chance people coulda seen big things from her! May god be with her in her new journey.
Until next time...
Keeping my Peace.
I just had to get some stuff off my mind before i can go back to bed.
I stayed up tonight to hear the news, because earlier my Aunt Ann had called to say that she was upset cause there were police and such taking photos in her neighbors house and she had a bad feeling... KXLY was on scene so i waited to see.
Her bad feeling came to light. They announced her Neighbor ( im keeping her name private cause it hasnt been released ) / friend was murdered in her own home, apparently by her live in friend. - investigation on going -
What the hell?
This comes after a weird turn of events around here anyways. You all know i HATE full moons. too many sicko's and weird things happen. It all started Friday - the school across the street from me was locked down, while they searched for a man with a gun, who said he was going to kill his ex girlfriend and himself and then later that morning they found, There was a 25 y.o. man who shot himself and was found about oh i dunno... 500 feet from my house, in the school yard. Wasnt fun to watch unfold, and I was creeped out thinking THIS HAPPENS? in real life....
Then Saturday and Sunday I just felt Off. Just Off
Then Today this... Sucks. My aunt, the one who lives next to ________, who was just killed. Is sensitive to this all anyways because a couple of years ago she found her other neighbor and close friend dead in his room, he had shot himself. So of course her mind is filled with bad things anytime theres cops, ambulances etc around her home... it just breaks my heart to think that this world really is this damn sick!! and the impacts on even the sometimes the most distant people really are astranomical sometimes. Its just a unfortunate turn of events, that makes you stop and think... wow, what next?!
SICK SICK SICK!!!
ugh - i dunno rather to be mad, sad or indifferent.
Tonights Sadness : My wish is that ________ May rest in peace. No matter her life circumstances, and some peoples opinions of her ______, was a wonderful caring person. She put others first, and truely did try to be better for herself. Sometimes people are just cut too short. And in this case, given the chance people coulda seen big things from her! May god be with her in her new journey.
Until next time...
Keeping my Peace.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Snow wonderful
I got these shots today while playing in the snow with roo... she loves the " snoooow " Its been a wonderful winter for snow much fun!
Friday, January 11, 2008
tubble roo!
Roo loves to tumble and mommy loves to take pictures so I guess this was a no brainer.
15 months old
15 months old
Thursday, December 20, 2007
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