A day with daddy at the park

the 2 true loves of my life!We went to manito park today and I snapped this while he was playing with roo

I could cry for my friend

I decided I needed to blog, cause something is on my mind so much lately.

Ive been doing a great deal of thinking, which in itself is amazing sometimes, but this time its true! I have a friend who I care for alot.. She, along with her kids hold a special place in my heart but im frustrated. Over the 2 years i have known her I have heard, seen and worried so much over certain situations. I really thought that she would have moved on and found her feet touching the ground by now from one inparticular but its just not happening. I continue to support her and be there, all the while she knows how i feel - THATS WHAT MAKES A GOOD FRIEND! but im getting worried again. very worried.

* let me say that sometimes i do wonder and worry about mike and I for example. Are we ok, am i a good wife? he a good husband, father, lover etc.... then when i put it in the the grand sceme of things- NO WAY DO I HAVE WORRIES. When issues like that that my friend is having come up it makes me reassure myself even more that what mike and I have is wonderful, right, loving, and true. I have no worries. He loves me, respects me, works for us daily - and i dont mean material wise i mean to be together etc. and I him. He is my best friend, my co-parent, my partner, lover, soul mate and more! Everything a marriage should be..... and more.

This is not what my friend has at all not even remotely. Maybe co-exitsting but certainly not healthy or right... Why my friend would be willing to put her and her kids through a apparently endless hell is beyond me. She was glowing today when i seen her, shes beautiful daily inside and out! , her kids are all 3 so wonderful each in their own way - and its all HER doing she raises them, feeds them, teaches them etc.!!! Shes a great mom, a trusting friend, a loving soul and is just searching for something/one who can make her happy and treat her right. Recently her other half and im using that loosely was away for a few months working, again very loosely. While he was gone she was doing so good, for herself talking better about herself her children were dressing better, getting stuff they have wanted, and she was working on fixing the house- i never once seen her unhappy other than missing him! When he got back home it went sour... shes down again, shes the one working while he sits hom doing god knows what, but its not taking care of the kids, hes sneeky, lies to her habitually, and is a self coinceeded ass hole about oh i dunno.. 120% of the time?!

This is the same man who days after she had a c-sec from hell was making her clean, cook care for the children etc cause he wouldnt.The same man who puts her down for her imperfections, yet thinks nothing of his own, dgrates her and the family by his actions, words and ways..... and yet.....hes still called a man.

It hurts badly to see a friend go through this.. all i want to do is see her happy, like she was. to see those kids grow up knowing that this way of life isnt right, ok or even remotely acceptable...

What can I do? Ive told her this time and time again- she knows everything i have said... i just want to stop her pain.

Sigh--- all in time superwoman all in time!

sick roo October 2007

Roo was in the hospital with ecoli and a uti for a week over halloween... here are some of the pics.

A pumpkin picker

We took Madaya to the pumpkin patch this past weekend to pick pumpkins. The weather was unseasonibly warm and sunny and the farm was packed full of people!
She loved all the colors of the different shaped pumpkins and had fun thumping on a few with daddy.
It was a wonderful day filled with food, fun and family.
Heres a couple photos of our fun filled day.



im thankful for my harvest :






and how roo did the corn maze....
she was amazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzing :)

The begining of a beautiful thing?

Well here we are a little more than a year since our beautfiful baby girl entered into this world. We had a website up for just her for the first year of her life, of which I updated often to keep friends and family close even when they couldnt be here in person. The response was truely amazing, and now that we are getting ready to take down that site I am in search of a new way to keep everyone up to date. So... A blog looked like a good thing to try.
No promises here but II am going to try my best to keep this page as up to date as possible. Since I know nothing of this blogging stuff its going to take a bit of time first until I can navigate this freely.
Please feel free to comment us, add us or whatever you would like just dont loose us!


April, Michael and Madaya

11 month old BABY?!

Whats happened to my " baby"


Daya turned 11 months old today ... I dont know rather to cry or laugh. I cannot beleive in 4 short weeks she will be 1.

After all those painful childless years, then the pg from hell and the worries I never thought i would be here.... but yet, I remember bringing home my lil 4 1/2 pound angel from the hospital and thinking that that time would never end...

now i have an 11 month old tiny toe princess and she never has seased to amaze me.

Today she is 15lbs 11oz, and 28" long. So tiny and sweet, and all too smart for herself.

She loves to talk, dance, and play and walking is on the way :(

Gosh... cry or laugh?!

New life on earth and in heaven

A new life together on earth and one in heaven?!


So by now most of you ( close friends ) and prolly my " fans " too have heard that the wedding is over... along with the life of a good guy.

The news isnt helping. I wasnt expecting to see this on TV as i thought maybe they would keep private things private.

*** For privacy I will not indulge all info and some things will not be said. If your looking for details your in the wrong place ***

If you havent heart youll hear now, and if you have and dont like something - suck it up its not about you and nothing to make fun of.

Saturday was truely a blessed day in many ways! The day started out slow for me personally but once bree got here to get me it was all down hill and sped on by. Bree and I spent the entire morning together getting ready for her big day. She was calm collected and actually enjoying it i think -- a good change for her pace, since things have been stressful. We got to the hall and decorated, set up etc in a flash. It was amazing how perfect and simply things came together - not one wrong thing. A brides dream.

The wedding started, all was calm, in place and everyone had a blast. The reception followed filled with love, best wishes and many kisses. The newlyweds looked radiant and the evening continued to be purely perfect. JUST PERFECT is the only way i can explain...

taking a deep breath here :

As I walked out of the hall for the 2nd time that night to load my things and leave, i see a fire truck. I run over only to find one of brees friends, and some others gathered around. _____ had fallen out of a truck and was hurt - bad. A fast thinking friend called 911 and it was all a blur from there. I felt cold, and empty and only wanted to calm those involved as the minutes passed and they loaded this hurt unresponsive body to be taken to the hospital i felt then and there that he was gone, but know one knew and conflicting stories started to stir....

As God would have it ___________ would not stay on this earth much longer. The following afternoon they took him off of life support and the truth of the injuries were told. _____ had to go home to be with our maker. His brain and lungs were injured by falling out of the truck and him and his friends were getting ready to leave... a tradgic accident and a horrible way to end a day and a life.

My prayers are that Bree and Curt come to peace with their day and that some how they heal and realize there is nothing they or anyone could have done. _____ did live his life how and when he wanted and should be remembered as the man he was. He wanted to make people smile and i beleive that his spirit still wants that.

I also pray that ____ made it to the other side knowing that he was very loved by his many friends, and family. The love i seen from his friends is absolutely asstonishing. If he ever had doubts as to if he was loved, thought of or respected i sure hope they were resolved.

Rest in peace and love _____, I beleive you will be on earth in some form for all those you left all too soon! I may not have known you well, but i known well of you. Much too soon for such a life!

A new life on earth for Curt and Bree and A new life in Heaven for ____.

A moment, A time, A wish...

Peach be with you.

Mikes baby bro!!

Well for those of my readers heres the update:

Mike and I were indeed able to make it out to Idaho today to see Corey ( mikes 8yo bro ) and let Daya meet him. It was fun, but short. We had a full plate, but wanted to make sure we made it out anyways. It was a fun time. Our newphews ( who you know captivate me ) were full of fun, energy and love as usual and corey received us well. Corey talked up a storm and filled us in on his school, and martial arts hobbies - way cool!

Whats funny is for us never talking to the " outlaws " lil corey sure knew a TON about us. Right down to our house, our recent accident etc. Weird?! I tried not to read too much into it but he is soooo ahead of his time.

Maybe next time we can see him longer...

And I know we will see the " boys" soon cause ive promised a visit to the park since we couldnt go today.

ON THE SIDE NOTE MY SIL IS ABSOLUTELY GLOWING!!!! I CANNOT WAIT TO MEET THIS NEW BABY BEAN ( whom i beleive will be a lil princess ) .

Inlaw/Outlaw

So for those of you who follow my inlaw/outlaw problems heres a new one...

Things are crazy busy this week as is - you know big wedding weekend finally, well they knew we had these plans, and every one was pretty willing to work with us so that we could see mikes lil bro when he was in town BEFORE his dad and step mom got here...

Looks like, however, that we wont get that chance... due to many factors and we are kinda bummed about it. We are hoping the issues between mike and his dad arent to blame for this, as corey should have nothing to do with it or be in the middle at all.

Maybe next time... Or.... Maybe Not?!

A blogger I will be...

Daddys coming home with wings :)

So close ...


HES DUE HOME IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS!!!!

I cannot wait! Daya and I will be at the airport to pick him up- then we have a full week planned.