Whats happened to my " baby"
Daya turned 11 months old today ... I dont know rather to cry or laugh. I cannot beleive in 4 short weeks she will be 1.
After all those painful childless years, then the pg from hell and the worries I never thought i would be here.... but yet, I remember bringing home my lil 4 1/2 pound angel from the hospital and thinking that that time would never end...
now i have an 11 month old tiny toe princess and she never has seased to amaze me.
Today she is 15lbs 11oz, and 28" long. So tiny and sweet, and all too smart for herself.
She loves to talk, dance, and play and walking is on the way :(
Gosh... cry or laugh?!
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Sunday, August 26, 2007
New life on earth and in heaven
A new life together on earth and one in heaven?!
So by now most of you ( close friends ) and prolly my " fans " too have heard that the wedding is over... along with the life of a good guy.
The news isnt helping. I wasnt expecting to see this on TV as i thought maybe they would keep private things private.
*** For privacy I will not indulge all info and some things will not be said. If your looking for details your in the wrong place ***
If you havent heart youll hear now, and if you have and dont like something - suck it up its not about you and nothing to make fun of.
Saturday was truely a blessed day in many ways! The day started out slow for me personally but once bree got here to get me it was all down hill and sped on by. Bree and I spent the entire morning together getting ready for her big day. She was calm collected and actually enjoying it i think -- a good change for her pace, since things have been stressful. We got to the hall and decorated, set up etc in a flash. It was amazing how perfect and simply things came together - not one wrong thing. A brides dream.
The wedding started, all was calm, in place and everyone had a blast. The reception followed filled with love, best wishes and many kisses. The newlyweds looked radiant and the evening continued to be purely perfect. JUST PERFECT is the only way i can explain...
taking a deep breath here :
As I walked out of the hall for the 2nd time that night to load my things and leave, i see a fire truck. I run over only to find one of brees friends, and some others gathered around. _____ had fallen out of a truck and was hurt - bad. A fast thinking friend called 911 and it was all a blur from there. I felt cold, and empty and only wanted to calm those involved as the minutes passed and they loaded this hurt unresponsive body to be taken to the hospital i felt then and there that he was gone, but know one knew and conflicting stories started to stir....
As God would have it ___________ would not stay on this earth much longer. The following afternoon they took him off of life support and the truth of the injuries were told. _____ had to go home to be with our maker. His brain and lungs were injured by falling out of the truck and him and his friends were getting ready to leave... a tradgic accident and a horrible way to end a day and a life.
My prayers are that Bree and Curt come to peace with their day and that some how they heal and realize there is nothing they or anyone could have done. _____ did live his life how and when he wanted and should be remembered as the man he was. He wanted to make people smile and i beleive that his spirit still wants that.
I also pray that ____ made it to the other side knowing that he was very loved by his many friends, and family. The love i seen from his friends is absolutely asstonishing. If he ever had doubts as to if he was loved, thought of or respected i sure hope they were resolved.
Rest in peace and love _____, I beleive you will be on earth in some form for all those you left all too soon! I may not have known you well, but i known well of you. Much too soon for such a life!
A new life on earth for Curt and Bree and A new life in Heaven for ____.
A moment, A time, A wish...
Peach be with you.
So by now most of you ( close friends ) and prolly my " fans " too have heard that the wedding is over... along with the life of a good guy.
The news isnt helping. I wasnt expecting to see this on TV as i thought maybe they would keep private things private.
*** For privacy I will not indulge all info and some things will not be said. If your looking for details your in the wrong place ***
If you havent heart youll hear now, and if you have and dont like something - suck it up its not about you and nothing to make fun of.
Saturday was truely a blessed day in many ways! The day started out slow for me personally but once bree got here to get me it was all down hill and sped on by. Bree and I spent the entire morning together getting ready for her big day. She was calm collected and actually enjoying it i think -- a good change for her pace, since things have been stressful. We got to the hall and decorated, set up etc in a flash. It was amazing how perfect and simply things came together - not one wrong thing. A brides dream.
The wedding started, all was calm, in place and everyone had a blast. The reception followed filled with love, best wishes and many kisses. The newlyweds looked radiant and the evening continued to be purely perfect. JUST PERFECT is the only way i can explain...
taking a deep breath here :
As I walked out of the hall for the 2nd time that night to load my things and leave, i see a fire truck. I run over only to find one of brees friends, and some others gathered around. _____ had fallen out of a truck and was hurt - bad. A fast thinking friend called 911 and it was all a blur from there. I felt cold, and empty and only wanted to calm those involved as the minutes passed and they loaded this hurt unresponsive body to be taken to the hospital i felt then and there that he was gone, but know one knew and conflicting stories started to stir....
As God would have it ___________ would not stay on this earth much longer. The following afternoon they took him off of life support and the truth of the injuries were told. _____ had to go home to be with our maker. His brain and lungs were injured by falling out of the truck and him and his friends were getting ready to leave... a tradgic accident and a horrible way to end a day and a life.
My prayers are that Bree and Curt come to peace with their day and that some how they heal and realize there is nothing they or anyone could have done. _____ did live his life how and when he wanted and should be remembered as the man he was. He wanted to make people smile and i beleive that his spirit still wants that.
I also pray that ____ made it to the other side knowing that he was very loved by his many friends, and family. The love i seen from his friends is absolutely asstonishing. If he ever had doubts as to if he was loved, thought of or respected i sure hope they were resolved.
Rest in peace and love _____, I beleive you will be on earth in some form for all those you left all too soon! I may not have known you well, but i known well of you. Much too soon for such a life!
A new life on earth for Curt and Bree and A new life in Heaven for ____.
A moment, A time, A wish...
Peach be with you.
Friday, August 24, 2007
Mikes baby bro!!
Well for those of my readers heres the update:
Mike and I were indeed able to make it out to Idaho today to see Corey ( mikes 8yo bro ) and let Daya meet him. It was fun, but short. We had a full plate, but wanted to make sure we made it out anyways. It was a fun time. Our newphews ( who you know captivate me ) were full of fun, energy and love as usual and corey received us well. Corey talked up a storm and filled us in on his school, and martial arts hobbies - way cool!
Whats funny is for us never talking to the " outlaws " lil corey sure knew a TON about us. Right down to our house, our recent accident etc. Weird?! I tried not to read too much into it but he is soooo ahead of his time.
Maybe next time we can see him longer...
And I know we will see the " boys" soon cause ive promised a visit to the park since we couldnt go today.
ON THE SIDE NOTE MY SIL IS ABSOLUTELY GLOWING!!!! I CANNOT WAIT TO MEET THIS NEW BABY BEAN ( whom i beleive will be a lil princess ) .
Mike and I were indeed able to make it out to Idaho today to see Corey ( mikes 8yo bro ) and let Daya meet him. It was fun, but short. We had a full plate, but wanted to make sure we made it out anyways. It was a fun time. Our newphews ( who you know captivate me ) were full of fun, energy and love as usual and corey received us well. Corey talked up a storm and filled us in on his school, and martial arts hobbies - way cool!
Whats funny is for us never talking to the " outlaws " lil corey sure knew a TON about us. Right down to our house, our recent accident etc. Weird?! I tried not to read too much into it but he is soooo ahead of his time.
Maybe next time we can see him longer...
And I know we will see the " boys" soon cause ive promised a visit to the park since we couldnt go today.
ON THE SIDE NOTE MY SIL IS ABSOLUTELY GLOWING!!!! I CANNOT WAIT TO MEET THIS NEW BABY BEAN ( whom i beleive will be a lil princess ) .
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Inlaw/Outlaw
So for those of you who follow my inlaw/outlaw problems heres a new one...
Things are crazy busy this week as is - you know big wedding weekend finally, well they knew we had these plans, and every one was pretty willing to work with us so that we could see mikes lil bro when he was in town BEFORE his dad and step mom got here...
Looks like, however, that we wont get that chance... due to many factors and we are kinda bummed about it. We are hoping the issues between mike and his dad arent to blame for this, as corey should have nothing to do with it or be in the middle at all.
Maybe next time... Or.... Maybe Not?!
A blogger I will be...
Things are crazy busy this week as is - you know big wedding weekend finally, well they knew we had these plans, and every one was pretty willing to work with us so that we could see mikes lil bro when he was in town BEFORE his dad and step mom got here...
Looks like, however, that we wont get that chance... due to many factors and we are kinda bummed about it. We are hoping the issues between mike and his dad arent to blame for this, as corey should have nothing to do with it or be in the middle at all.
Maybe next time... Or.... Maybe Not?!
A blogger I will be...
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Daddys coming home with wings :)
So close ...
HES DUE HOME IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS!!!!
I cannot wait! Daya and I will be at the airport to pick him up- then we have a full week planned.
HES DUE HOME IN LESS THAN 24 HOURS!!!!
I cannot wait! Daya and I will be at the airport to pick him up- then we have a full week planned.
Friday, August 17, 2007
5 days till daddy comes home!
5 more days till my hubby can :
- hold me
- see me
- kiss me
- see roo
- hug & kiss roo
- spend our nights together, and not on the phone
and 5 simple days till I can enjoy my husband again!
I cannot wait! My heart is pounding, my stomach is turning and my smile doesnt quit shining!
5 more days!
- hold me
- see me
- kiss me
- see roo
- hug & kiss roo
- spend our nights together, and not on the phone
and 5 simple days till I can enjoy my husband again!
I cannot wait! My heart is pounding, my stomach is turning and my smile doesnt quit shining!
5 more days!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
A blogger I will be?
my mind is going on and i cannot sleep.
Today has been a busy day. We worked on the yard, cleaned the house, did some laundry and tried to keep roo happy - momma looks like a walking 1 woman circus!
Tonight I was online and bored, But glad i was cause i FINALLY got to talk to my SIL ( the one i mentioned in some blogs you with accsess can see ) . She is well, and feeling better she says.
It was so nice to catch up with her since shes one of whom we are on great terms with and we have a mutual respect for one another- its been awhile.
At one point I was clued in as to if we had been invited to one of our nephews b-day party. My reply was NO. We havent heard anything... I wasnt thinking this would bother me, and it really comes as no shocker that we werent invited - but whats killin me is that we love our nephews and neices very much and no matter what or who we do like to see them, love them and see their special moments when we can,
so yes, this is hurting. I dont know why we werent invited or even why Mike wasnt -- I know that I am not liked, but damn didnt think this would happen. Mike could have at least gone, but i doubt he would have with out me or his daughter. Those kids mean alot to us, and they claim to love our child too... so im lost. Will they want to show for dayas party?! or should i waste my time?
I guess ill leave it in gods hands. Maybe theres a reason. I know the inlaws are gonna be in town, and in all fairness maybe this is why the mom didnt invite us.. maybe she was doing it out of respect knowing it would make it uncomfy and awkward givin the situations of past, and present? I dont know. I dont even know if this is when they are said to be here.
Other than that my mind is going 100 miles a minute. Mike is due home in a week exactly and I am very much aticipating his arrival. Its been a long time and I have butterflies in my tummy. Its lonely with out him and its been very stressful as of late, so i know in my heart its time we connect on a level thats been long coming! I cannot wait . Sometimes i feel so lost and lonely and I sure get tired of being alone! Sure i have people around, but no one fills his spot or even close- sometimes all i long for is his touch, his voice, his company. -- ooh i wanna sleep it all away till he gets here so time flies!
Brees wedding is 9 days away and I am so excited over that - shes been sick and i dont know if its from nerves or what but man i hope shes feeling better soon. Im so close to her and it makes me sad to think shes ailing.
All at the same time Mikes lil bro is said to be in town that week - and mike and I are hoping to see him at least for a little while. We love that lil man and its been so long ( since we moved ) . We have no ill feelings for him and nor do we make him a part of the issues with mike and his dad - hes much to young and has nothing to do with this. Were hoping to see him but time will tell...
I suppose i should run to bed. Im beat and daya has a apt with dr in the morning. Shes not acting like her self and has some things going on... praying all is well.
Until next time,
A Blogger I will be.
Today has been a busy day. We worked on the yard, cleaned the house, did some laundry and tried to keep roo happy - momma looks like a walking 1 woman circus!
Tonight I was online and bored, But glad i was cause i FINALLY got to talk to my SIL ( the one i mentioned in some blogs you with accsess can see ) . She is well, and feeling better she says.
It was so nice to catch up with her since shes one of whom we are on great terms with and we have a mutual respect for one another- its been awhile.
At one point I was clued in as to if we had been invited to one of our nephews b-day party. My reply was NO. We havent heard anything... I wasnt thinking this would bother me, and it really comes as no shocker that we werent invited - but whats killin me is that we love our nephews and neices very much and no matter what or who we do like to see them, love them and see their special moments when we can,
so yes, this is hurting. I dont know why we werent invited or even why Mike wasnt -- I know that I am not liked, but damn didnt think this would happen. Mike could have at least gone, but i doubt he would have with out me or his daughter. Those kids mean alot to us, and they claim to love our child too... so im lost. Will they want to show for dayas party?! or should i waste my time?
I guess ill leave it in gods hands. Maybe theres a reason. I know the inlaws are gonna be in town, and in all fairness maybe this is why the mom didnt invite us.. maybe she was doing it out of respect knowing it would make it uncomfy and awkward givin the situations of past, and present? I dont know. I dont even know if this is when they are said to be here.
Other than that my mind is going 100 miles a minute. Mike is due home in a week exactly and I am very much aticipating his arrival. Its been a long time and I have butterflies in my tummy. Its lonely with out him and its been very stressful as of late, so i know in my heart its time we connect on a level thats been long coming! I cannot wait . Sometimes i feel so lost and lonely and I sure get tired of being alone! Sure i have people around, but no one fills his spot or even close- sometimes all i long for is his touch, his voice, his company. -- ooh i wanna sleep it all away till he gets here so time flies!
Brees wedding is 9 days away and I am so excited over that - shes been sick and i dont know if its from nerves or what but man i hope shes feeling better soon. Im so close to her and it makes me sad to think shes ailing.
All at the same time Mikes lil bro is said to be in town that week - and mike and I are hoping to see him at least for a little while. We love that lil man and its been so long ( since we moved ) . We have no ill feelings for him and nor do we make him a part of the issues with mike and his dad - hes much to young and has nothing to do with this. Were hoping to see him but time will tell...
I suppose i should run to bed. Im beat and daya has a apt with dr in the morning. Shes not acting like her self and has some things going on... praying all is well.
Until next time,
A Blogger I will be.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
how do you give..
so how do you...
How do you give a speach at a wedding but just not any wedding
Its not just any speach but a speach that says everything thats in your heart, and everything you have ever said over the years?
How do you put in to words how you feel about a situation, a person, a love ?
My BF is getting married in oh you know, about 13 days ( plus a few hours ) and I as the maid of honor am going to have to suck my tears up ( and its gonna require a shopvac or something ) and find the strength to stand up and tell the world how i feel about this...
So how do I tell everyone that I love these people with out reservations, I am proud of them, their lives and their accomplishments. How do I share that their future is going to be so full of love, laughter and Happiness....
How do i tell them that I knew they would be together since before they even met- and i am gloating in all of this?
How do i tell her that shes the most beautiful bride, and him that he is the luckiest man? How do I give my best friend to my best cousin and welcome her again to a family shes already been welcomed to 20 times over? This is where they belong - and how do I tell them They are wonderful together.
Even if i find just the right words....... How do I Not bawl?
How do you give a speach at a wedding but just not any wedding
Its not just any speach but a speach that says everything thats in your heart, and everything you have ever said over the years?
How do you put in to words how you feel about a situation, a person, a love ?
My BF is getting married in oh you know, about 13 days ( plus a few hours ) and I as the maid of honor am going to have to suck my tears up ( and its gonna require a shopvac or something ) and find the strength to stand up and tell the world how i feel about this...
So how do I tell everyone that I love these people with out reservations, I am proud of them, their lives and their accomplishments. How do I share that their future is going to be so full of love, laughter and Happiness....
How do i tell them that I knew they would be together since before they even met- and i am gloating in all of this?
How do i tell her that shes the most beautiful bride, and him that he is the luckiest man? How do I give my best friend to my best cousin and welcome her again to a family shes already been welcomed to 20 times over? This is where they belong - and how do I tell them They are wonderful together.
Even if i find just the right words....... How do I Not bawl?
Friday, August 10, 2007
My habbit
My habbit...
Have you ever had a habitt and then not do it for awhile ... wait... wait... and then do it again. its like heaven huh? well my " habbit " comes home in 12 days I am so excited, so anxious, and so scared!!! lol all in one ball.
I cannot wait to start my habbit again, and im scared cause if we dont make the most of the time we have while here, then we loose it all. Its always that way - i cannot wait to see my habbit and share all i have missed..
12 more days until i breath my habbit!! 12 more days!
my habbit is my husband.... and i am proud of my habbit!
Have you ever had a habitt and then not do it for awhile ... wait... wait... and then do it again. its like heaven huh? well my " habbit " comes home in 12 days I am so excited, so anxious, and so scared!!! lol all in one ball.
I cannot wait to start my habbit again, and im scared cause if we dont make the most of the time we have while here, then we loose it all. Its always that way - i cannot wait to see my habbit and share all i have missed..
12 more days until i breath my habbit!! 12 more days!
my habbit is my husband.... and i am proud of my habbit!
Sunday, February 18, 2007
in and out laws
*** I have chosen to UN-BLOCK, AND UN- HIDE THIS BLOG not for flames or debate just for posting - so if you read this i dont want flack ***
Inlaws or Outlaws
Venting Blog Warning!
I am so frustrated and thought I would get some of it out on my blog.
It seems again as if my " outlaws" are at it again. Mike had made the decission a while back not to talk to his father since his father refused to admit anything, or own any of his actions to and for mike as a child. Mike tried to bring it to him and was shut down again. Over the years the Inlaws said many many hurtful things about me, mike and our said children ( while we were trying to get pregnant ) . Here we are in Feb of 2007 our lil roo is 4 months old and they will never meet her. I dont think even if they were allowed to they would however because of their actions.
I just get so frustrated because theres days like today when one of mikes siblings will call him and be like " you really should talk to dad, call him etc" it kills me to think they actually want mike to have something to do with an issue he has many times over tried to resolve. I stand by my husband and support his decission. I admire him and am proud of him for sticking up for his wife and daughter. The actions and words from the mouths of these people are in no way acceptable. It hurts, will always hurt and all mike is trying to do it heal and protect us ---- how can they be mad at that?
Just a vent... LEAVE HIM ALONE!
When and IF ( thats a big IF now ) the time is right perhaps things will change. Until then, Mike has made his choice, and we dont need to hear about it daily, weekly or even monthly. WE DONT CARE.
We are a FAMILY - and that means were to be accepted as is and together!
Someday.... they will know.
Inlaws? Outlaws? Its all indifferent!
Inlaws or Outlaws
Venting Blog Warning!
I am so frustrated and thought I would get some of it out on my blog.
It seems again as if my " outlaws" are at it again. Mike had made the decission a while back not to talk to his father since his father refused to admit anything, or own any of his actions to and for mike as a child. Mike tried to bring it to him and was shut down again. Over the years the Inlaws said many many hurtful things about me, mike and our said children ( while we were trying to get pregnant ) . Here we are in Feb of 2007 our lil roo is 4 months old and they will never meet her. I dont think even if they were allowed to they would however because of their actions.
I just get so frustrated because theres days like today when one of mikes siblings will call him and be like " you really should talk to dad, call him etc" it kills me to think they actually want mike to have something to do with an issue he has many times over tried to resolve. I stand by my husband and support his decission. I admire him and am proud of him for sticking up for his wife and daughter. The actions and words from the mouths of these people are in no way acceptable. It hurts, will always hurt and all mike is trying to do it heal and protect us ---- how can they be mad at that?
Just a vent... LEAVE HIM ALONE!
When and IF ( thats a big IF now ) the time is right perhaps things will change. Until then, Mike has made his choice, and we dont need to hear about it daily, weekly or even monthly. WE DONT CARE.
We are a FAMILY - and that means were to be accepted as is and together!
Someday.... they will know.
Inlaws? Outlaws? Its all indifferent!
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