Mickey Mouse Clubhouse LIVE

Mike and I planned on taking daya to see playhouse disney LIVE for her valnetines day gift. However as it turned out daddy had to work, so mommy and grammy got to take her.
She had a blast. She loved seeing all lights, special effects and of course, hearing all her favorite songs.
She even " got down " with the Hotdog song from the Mickey Mouse clubhouse. Seeing a 2 yo " getting down " infront of hundreds of people is sure funny. She danced like herself, as if no one was watching.


Its sappy but true -brought tears to my eyes. She loved it :)

I didnt get good photos since your not supposed to have cameras in there - i was obeying the law :) ( for once ).

May you bark with the angels...

Kaydough " Bubba "
Nov. 2000 - Feb. 2009

Dear Kaydough,

I love you so much, and this is so hard. Today will be the day we set you free from your pain, your infections your frustrations, free to run and bark with the angels...

You have been such a blessing to us, you have served your family with nothing but loyalty and love for the past 9 years. You are a inspiration, a friend, a ear to talk to, so much you have been here for and done your part and now its time to do ours.

When we got you out of that box infront of walmart 9 years ago I wouldnt have ever imagined you would be here with us for so much. But with each new curve ball life through at us, you caught it and helped us through. We knew you had some medical issues from the start, and certainly did our best to make you right by medical standards, but that best came at a ultimate price to your health.

Theres only so many times you can use steroids, and medicines to better you before it worsens your system. By all means you have done better than the vet's said you would, and you have served your family to its fullest.

I will never ever forget holding you close, telling you all about my fears, my worries, my anxieties and my pain. Each time I did this you always looked at me with those big brown eyes and just seemed to make everything seem ok, if even for a minute. You are my bubba.

You knew before I did, usually, of impending pain or disaster to me. You let me lean on you in the darkest nights, the coldest winters and the rainest seasons. All 11 miscarriages, all the years of infertility and its agony you were right there to comfort me just like it was an angel itself telling me to keep spreading my own wings. Finally you were there when we got to bring our precious gift from God home. I think you wanted her as much as we did, you werent jelous at all, you welcomed Madaya with all the love and affection you had given to us. Again, like you knew exactly what to do.

It wasnt all bad times you were there for kaydough, we had so many good times! When you were a lil pup we got sooooo mad at you. Frustrated and down right tired of you. You were naughty and wouldnt house train for the life of us, then one day I got down on the floor with you and was lecturing you about your " naughties " you just rolled over onto your back, kicking your legs in the air and making the cutest of sounds, as if it all seemed so small at that minute that nothing else mattered and you were our bubba and just needed time.

It wasnt long before you showed us you were in deed a smart, good boy. You were always willing to EAT, SLEEP AND GO!! you loved chasing balls, hanging your head out the car window and always loved to be the center of attention.

We moved to Vader, Washington into our new home and you were thrilled. You became the Vader Lion's club mascot with your cute lil lions costume I made you and were beyond happy to be in the town parade each year. The kids and people around town knew you and always stopped to say hello if we were out and about.

One of our favorite memories is when we were going to town in Chehalis, we had brought you with us, Daddy and I stopped for lunch, Chinese. Daddy always orders spicy food, and this day was no different. At the end of our meal we boxed up the left overs, put them in the car, and ran our errands as planned. You hadnt gotten in to much before hand so we didnt think about it, we got out of the car, into the store - and returned 30 minutes later to find you totally drooling, sweating, crying. You had eaten ALL of daddy's spicy food. It was so sad, and we wanted to be so mad, but it was hallariously funny! This is what made you bubba! You never did it again... ever.

You have 2 sisters. Kaydee and Kia. You've tought them both so well, and I think that you learned a little from them as well. Before Kaydee you were a loving boy, but didnt really wanna love on anything/anyone but us. When Kaydee came you took her in loved her, and tought her all she needed, while she tought you to slow down and love anyone more. Maybe its cause you were affraid people liked kaydee more?! Silly boy....

When we added kia to the family, you werent as impressed, but in these last few months you have been grooming her, I beleive to take your place. Your place to care for us, be our happiness, our joy and our friend. Youve done a good job, but its not going to be the same.

These last few months have taken their toll on you and we dont want you to be in pain anymore. Your biting people, and getting moody because your in pain so much - and thats not you. After you do something like that you feel so bad and try so hard to make sure we know its not " you ". Kaydough, we know. Your a good boy.

We took you to the park yesterday to watch you play one last time, and it was heart wrenching as you wouldnt even run straight. Through the pain you tried to play though and it confirmed to me with that roll in the snow, and last return of the ball that you know and are ready to be set free from these leashes of pain. We made special treats with peanut butter because you love peanut butter, and have taken lots of photos with you.

So, kaydough this is our goodbye boy, you have done so well.

Thank you so much for showing us how to love, listen and care for others, thats exactly what youve done.

You are loved by so many, and your passing is sure to hit hard for all of us.

Run boy... go, go bark with the angels.

We will see you again soon!

28 months ?!

Is it really possible that madaya is almost 2 1/2? I simply cant beleive it.

I snapped a few shots of her today since its been awhile.... shes 28 months going on 30 years!

Let the packing begin

My mom came today to help get a lot packed up, We have decided since Mike is off on the 22nd that it would be the best day to move... so incase your counting: THATS 14 days!!!
Daya wanted to pack too! She helped pack her over abundance of toys, and her old baby stuff. She was so cute saying " see you at new house toys!! ".
We're packing down to the bones!
She wants to go in a box too she says.... Heres some pics:

Madacascar

WAY TOO CUTE!!

We ( Selina the kiddo's and I ) took Madaya to see Madagascar 2 Escape to Africa tonight for dollar night..
Daya thought it was cute.

I liked the whole thing, but a couple spots shined cause im a weirdo!


And check out my Favorite song : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yZzF1xHIVMU&feature=related

I like them chunky!

too silly.

Dayas big girl bed

I keep forgetting to post about Daya's new bed.

Shes gonna love it!
We picked it up off of craigslist - its as is in photo, only we need to buy a pink tent for it. The one is has is red.

She knows we got it... she calls it her Slide Sleepy! very cute!

She will get to use it once we move to the new house.

Hard to beleive our lil girl is growing so much - she needs a big girl bed!

WLS update : PreOp Detour

A sign has been spotted, and I am unsure if I like it - But this too shall pass!

I just blogged lastnight the updates of how fast this WLS journey is going, and I was wrong to ask how my Wednesday could go since I was having a good week to start off!

Today ( Wednesday) devistation has hit me bright and early this am...
I knew, * Just Knew * things were too good to be true - I got a call from the clinic this am, around 7 to tell me everything is on hold.

A MAJOR DETOUR!!

They could have done my pre-op tomarrow, but instead Im on a 30 day hold!

All my labs, tests and stuff from yesterday is PERFECT except one MAJOR thing:

MY THYROID IS OUT OF RANGE again,

the shitty thing is I know its my fault.

Ive been out of my Cytomel ( a t4 med ) for about 2 weeks, and the 200mcg of Levothyroxine is not enough apparently, my range yesterday was 8.9 which is WAY above where it should be ( 5 being max ).

So.... Detour it is. Theres no other choice. This intersection sucks, but at least I can see around the sign!

The only good thing I can keep thinking of is this : Now I know how I will move. Because, before I was going to be too close to surgery. It was alot on my plate and totally adding to the anxiety of it all! This will allow me to be settled in before surgery happens, and that in itself will be so much healthier mentally, and physically!

My plan of direction ( Knowing full well MY plans often arent GOD's PLANS! )

For the next 4-6 weeks ( ill re-test thyroid along the way ) I need to work on my pills, water intake, and MOVE.

Then re-eval and jump back on this beast of a horse. WHOLEY SHIT this WLS ride SUCKS talk about a roller coaster!

I was in tears. But everything happens for a reason, and this too shall pass.

I am going to stay focused as to the journey Ill get to look back on when I am at that finish line.

On a side note : My coordinator, Carol is leaving the clinic and the staff will be going through some major upsets. I think that maybe this could pose a lil problem too, but will try to stay grounded and stay on them to keep me in the loop, and not let me slip through the cracks.

Feeling:

BLESSED

This should sum it up.

I feel so incredibly blessed lately. Yes, I struggle with anxiety attacks related to the upcoming surgery, and Yes my hands are full at home with roo, and life in general but I do feel so blessed!
I really feel like we deserve a break. Weve been through some horrible things lately and I deffinetely can use a small minute or 2 to just breath.
Together things are so well, and getting better all the time.
Our good friends seem to be back in the swing of things and in tune with our lives, and although taking it slow, we both are so happy about this. We missed certain things/people so much. Were getting ready to move...
We just recently signed for our new rental home, and are so excited to be moving next month, then theres my surgery. I know Im blessed to have the medical team behind me that I do, and the coverage to pay for this, as theres no way to afford this 39K + surgery on our own - its a chance to live healthily and I am soooo looking forward to that! Then comes the general feeling of " were doing right " ... I really feel that way.
Blessed.

The best monday in a long time..

led to the most tiring tuesday of all times!

So yesterday was the best monday I have had in a long time. I dont need to tell you I am not a fan of mondays at all on a normal basis.
However yesterday was awesome.
I got the news I had been longing for and then found a bed for Madaya athat we had been looking for at a great price and it was just in general a good day! I even got some card making and stamping in and by the time I went to bed I just felt great.

So lets skip forward to today : tuesday.

I had to be to the lab to start all my lab work that the nurse was able to sched. me for ... I started at 10 after fasting all night ( not easy when your diabetic! ) and then had a galbladder scan, more labs, a chest xray, more labs, and an ekg. In all about 1/2 pint of blood, 2 xrays, 1 u/s and 1 MAJOR headache!
Then we went to mikes attourney for his hand injury. It was a crazy ... crazy day!

I know all of it it worth it ... but im wondering whats in store for Wednesday :) Can my week keep getting better?

The most anticipated words :

( and this time I dont mean " Your Pregnant " ... )

YOUVE BEEN APPROVED!!!

I heard from BCBS ( blue cross blue shield ) today that all is now a final go for my RouxenY Gastric bypass!!! WOOT WOOT!

I couldnt be more thrilled. I am so releived to finally have the green light from all intersections. I have a few more intersections to go through but those are nothing like those Ive been through, and will happen fast.... INFACT I JUST GOT A CALL WHILE TYPING THIS! Carol ( shes my coordinator ) is getting me in TOMARROW yes, TUESDAY FEBRAUARY 3rd To round up all my labs, xrays, ultrasounds etc!!! EVERYTHING I need before my pre-op apt. What a huge blessing.
After she gets the results ( about 48 hours ) they can schedule me :) We know for sure it will be by the 25th of the month, but maybe as soon as next week!
All the sudden this journey just got a lil bit more exciting.

Im all smiles...