Totally and completely Confused?! Annoyed Even?
I just needed to blog a minute and get this off my mind, cause apparently its on it way tooooooo much.
Im a mess at the moment and I feel so weird.
First off I think im Annoyed... then i think im Hurt, Sad, Worried, so Ill sum it up with CONFUSED!! A whole mix of emotions.
My nephew just turned 3 this week and we were hoping to go to his b-day party however my sister decided that a party at chucky cheese at 8, yes i said 8!! pm would be appropriate for saturday night. That whats sad is i would love to go but daya has no right being there playing that late and try to get to bed by 10. It winds me up its sure to wind her up. Im sad that we have to miss it and worried that my nephew will think we just dont want to be there? How untrue... Meanwhile hes way to young to understand what and why! His mom makes me mad, she knew thats not a good time for many many reasons for many people yet insists on it. So rather than a party looks like it will be a family dinner for them, which hey, ok they are used to it.
Ive been questioned as to why i can take daya to applebees at 9pm during the week but not chucky cheese. First off ANY parent would agree that being hyper before bed is NOT ideal. Second off Daya does not run around on a sugar high at 9 pm at applbees. Infact.. i havent gone last week cause i feel its more of a trouble than worth.. shes been a mess while out, a complete loud mouth, and just doesnt unwind when we get home.
Althought it breaks my heart I have to keep grounded that Honestly this is a silly move, and its just not a logical " party " time for a childs birthday.
Ok then im gonna tread into this deeper water here.... Bear with me as my thoughts are scattered. Some of the comments to me have been about we " have excuses " " talk about/ down of " my sister and her family... of which i openly admit i have many " downs" on them however when i choose to stand my ground on some issues and people tell me this it usually hits me cause i dont get the fact that some of these people are also ones who say stuff, but then do a 180?! i dont get it... and dont want to understand it fully it just hurts that this is exactly why shes gotten the way she is... no one does what they say, or says what they mean. PERIOD. GRRRR... I dunno
ill end for now...
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
SICK! This is why I dont like this world
Sick world...
I just had to get some stuff off my mind before i can go back to bed.
I stayed up tonight to hear the news, because earlier my Aunt Ann had called to say that she was upset cause there were police and such taking photos in her neighbors house and she had a bad feeling... KXLY was on scene so i waited to see.
Her bad feeling came to light. They announced her Neighbor ( im keeping her name private cause it hasnt been released ) / friend was murdered in her own home, apparently by her live in friend. - investigation on going -
What the hell?
This comes after a weird turn of events around here anyways. You all know i HATE full moons. too many sicko's and weird things happen. It all started Friday - the school across the street from me was locked down, while they searched for a man with a gun, who said he was going to kill his ex girlfriend and himself and then later that morning they found, There was a 25 y.o. man who shot himself and was found about oh i dunno... 500 feet from my house, in the school yard. Wasnt fun to watch unfold, and I was creeped out thinking THIS HAPPENS? in real life....
Then Saturday and Sunday I just felt Off. Just Off
Then Today this... Sucks. My aunt, the one who lives next to ________, who was just killed. Is sensitive to this all anyways because a couple of years ago she found her other neighbor and close friend dead in his room, he had shot himself. So of course her mind is filled with bad things anytime theres cops, ambulances etc around her home... it just breaks my heart to think that this world really is this damn sick!! and the impacts on even the sometimes the most distant people really are astranomical sometimes. Its just a unfortunate turn of events, that makes you stop and think... wow, what next?!
SICK SICK SICK!!!
ugh - i dunno rather to be mad, sad or indifferent.
Tonights Sadness : My wish is that ________ May rest in peace. No matter her life circumstances, and some peoples opinions of her ______, was a wonderful caring person. She put others first, and truely did try to be better for herself. Sometimes people are just cut too short. And in this case, given the chance people coulda seen big things from her! May god be with her in her new journey.
Until next time...
Keeping my Peace.
I just had to get some stuff off my mind before i can go back to bed.
I stayed up tonight to hear the news, because earlier my Aunt Ann had called to say that she was upset cause there were police and such taking photos in her neighbors house and she had a bad feeling... KXLY was on scene so i waited to see.
Her bad feeling came to light. They announced her Neighbor ( im keeping her name private cause it hasnt been released ) / friend was murdered in her own home, apparently by her live in friend. - investigation on going -
What the hell?
This comes after a weird turn of events around here anyways. You all know i HATE full moons. too many sicko's and weird things happen. It all started Friday - the school across the street from me was locked down, while they searched for a man with a gun, who said he was going to kill his ex girlfriend and himself and then later that morning they found, There was a 25 y.o. man who shot himself and was found about oh i dunno... 500 feet from my house, in the school yard. Wasnt fun to watch unfold, and I was creeped out thinking THIS HAPPENS? in real life....
Then Saturday and Sunday I just felt Off. Just Off
Then Today this... Sucks. My aunt, the one who lives next to ________, who was just killed. Is sensitive to this all anyways because a couple of years ago she found her other neighbor and close friend dead in his room, he had shot himself. So of course her mind is filled with bad things anytime theres cops, ambulances etc around her home... it just breaks my heart to think that this world really is this damn sick!! and the impacts on even the sometimes the most distant people really are astranomical sometimes. Its just a unfortunate turn of events, that makes you stop and think... wow, what next?!
SICK SICK SICK!!!
ugh - i dunno rather to be mad, sad or indifferent.
Tonights Sadness : My wish is that ________ May rest in peace. No matter her life circumstances, and some peoples opinions of her ______, was a wonderful caring person. She put others first, and truely did try to be better for herself. Sometimes people are just cut too short. And in this case, given the chance people coulda seen big things from her! May god be with her in her new journey.
Until next time...
Keeping my Peace.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Snow wonderful
I got these shots today while playing in the snow with roo... she loves the " snoooow " Its been a wonderful winter for snow much fun!
Friday, January 11, 2008
tubble roo!
Roo loves to tumble and mommy loves to take pictures so I guess this was a no brainer.
15 months old
15 months old
Thursday, December 20, 2007
bubble trouble
[URL=http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v313/apesnmike/?action=view¤t=Bubbletrouble-1.flv][IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v313/apesnmike/th_Bubbletrouble-1.jpg[/IMG][/URL]
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
A day with daddy at the park
the 2 true loves of my life!We went to manito park today and I snapped this while he was playing with roo
Thursday, November 08, 2007
I could cry for my friend
I decided I needed to blog, cause something is on my mind so much lately.
Ive been doing a great deal of thinking, which in itself is amazing sometimes, but this time its true! I have a friend who I care for alot.. She, along with her kids hold a special place in my heart but im frustrated. Over the 2 years i have known her I have heard, seen and worried so much over certain situations. I really thought that she would have moved on and found her feet touching the ground by now from one inparticular but its just not happening. I continue to support her and be there, all the while she knows how i feel - THATS WHAT MAKES A GOOD FRIEND! but im getting worried again. very worried.
* let me say that sometimes i do wonder and worry about mike and I for example. Are we ok, am i a good wife? he a good husband, father, lover etc.... then when i put it in the the grand sceme of things- NO WAY DO I HAVE WORRIES. When issues like that that my friend is having come up it makes me reassure myself even more that what mike and I have is wonderful, right, loving, and true. I have no worries. He loves me, respects me, works for us daily - and i dont mean material wise i mean to be together etc. and I him. He is my best friend, my co-parent, my partner, lover, soul mate and more! Everything a marriage should be..... and more.
This is not what my friend has at all not even remotely. Maybe co-exitsting but certainly not healthy or right... Why my friend would be willing to put her and her kids through a apparently endless hell is beyond me. She was glowing today when i seen her, shes beautiful daily inside and out! , her kids are all 3 so wonderful each in their own way - and its all HER doing she raises them, feeds them, teaches them etc.!!! Shes a great mom, a trusting friend, a loving soul and is just searching for something/one who can make her happy and treat her right. Recently her other half and im using that loosely was away for a few months working, again very loosely. While he was gone she was doing so good, for herself talking better about herself her children were dressing better, getting stuff they have wanted, and she was working on fixing the house- i never once seen her unhappy other than missing him! When he got back home it went sour... shes down again, shes the one working while he sits hom doing god knows what, but its not taking care of the kids, hes sneeky, lies to her habitually, and is a self coinceeded ass hole about oh i dunno.. 120% of the time?!
This is the same man who days after she had a c-sec from hell was making her clean, cook care for the children etc cause he wouldnt.The same man who puts her down for her imperfections, yet thinks nothing of his own, dgrates her and the family by his actions, words and ways..... and yet.....hes still called a man.
It hurts badly to see a friend go through this.. all i want to do is see her happy, like she was. to see those kids grow up knowing that this way of life isnt right, ok or even remotely acceptable...
What can I do? Ive told her this time and time again- she knows everything i have said... i just want to stop her pain.
Sigh--- all in time superwoman all in time!
Ive been doing a great deal of thinking, which in itself is amazing sometimes, but this time its true! I have a friend who I care for alot.. She, along with her kids hold a special place in my heart but im frustrated. Over the 2 years i have known her I have heard, seen and worried so much over certain situations. I really thought that she would have moved on and found her feet touching the ground by now from one inparticular but its just not happening. I continue to support her and be there, all the while she knows how i feel - THATS WHAT MAKES A GOOD FRIEND! but im getting worried again. very worried.
* let me say that sometimes i do wonder and worry about mike and I for example. Are we ok, am i a good wife? he a good husband, father, lover etc.... then when i put it in the the grand sceme of things- NO WAY DO I HAVE WORRIES. When issues like that that my friend is having come up it makes me reassure myself even more that what mike and I have is wonderful, right, loving, and true. I have no worries. He loves me, respects me, works for us daily - and i dont mean material wise i mean to be together etc. and I him. He is my best friend, my co-parent, my partner, lover, soul mate and more! Everything a marriage should be..... and more.
This is not what my friend has at all not even remotely. Maybe co-exitsting but certainly not healthy or right... Why my friend would be willing to put her and her kids through a apparently endless hell is beyond me. She was glowing today when i seen her, shes beautiful daily inside and out! , her kids are all 3 so wonderful each in their own way - and its all HER doing she raises them, feeds them, teaches them etc.!!! Shes a great mom, a trusting friend, a loving soul and is just searching for something/one who can make her happy and treat her right. Recently her other half and im using that loosely was away for a few months working, again very loosely. While he was gone she was doing so good, for herself talking better about herself her children were dressing better, getting stuff they have wanted, and she was working on fixing the house- i never once seen her unhappy other than missing him! When he got back home it went sour... shes down again, shes the one working while he sits hom doing god knows what, but its not taking care of the kids, hes sneeky, lies to her habitually, and is a self coinceeded ass hole about oh i dunno.. 120% of the time?!
This is the same man who days after she had a c-sec from hell was making her clean, cook care for the children etc cause he wouldnt.The same man who puts her down for her imperfections, yet thinks nothing of his own, dgrates her and the family by his actions, words and ways..... and yet.....hes still called a man.
It hurts badly to see a friend go through this.. all i want to do is see her happy, like she was. to see those kids grow up knowing that this way of life isnt right, ok or even remotely acceptable...
What can I do? Ive told her this time and time again- she knows everything i have said... i just want to stop her pain.
Sigh--- all in time superwoman all in time!
Thursday, November 01, 2007
sick roo October 2007
Roo was in the hospital with ecoli and a uti for a week over halloween... here are some of the pics.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
