Yesterday Today and Tomorrow

Welcome once again to a re-done reorganized blog... big changes in store.

Origininally a few years ago I started this blog through a hard time, evolved it into a family blog, and now will reclaim this as primarily my blog.

It is truely my Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.



The man I love, and was married to for close to 10 years has again decided to leave us. So with this please deal with me as we transition and find our wings.



Please keep any and all comments nice - as I do not have hard feelings at this time to him - only confusion, frustration and hurt.



Keep reading - this will be great therapy!!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

What it means

So it came up in one of mike and I's conversation the other day that he thinks we NEED the divorce because IF we were ever to be together it would have to be completely new.
I disagree. We had several good things that we can build on and although i dont want the bad, and want to start building in no way would I consider a divorce helpful. Its clear he will be going through with the divorce even though I have begged, pleeded and shown myself to be true to him. Im choosing to love him just as I always have in hopes that some day he sees however I realize that he may never see.
Once the divorce is final so will I be. No going back - I will not ever ( that I can see ) be with him again and do in all intentions hope to move on after wards. I dont think im destined to be alone, and I have all this love to give, and I loved being a wife. Im hopinng in time things show themselves but for now all i can think about is him and our family. I am still in disbeleif that he wont/dont want to work this out. And i mean ALL OVER! He needs to come home more, and we need to ge thelp to learn to speak each others languages. So much i did was wrong, but his too...
anyways back to my subject hes right were getting a divorce and once its final its final.

We filed for a dissolution of marriage the meaning of :

dis·so·lu·tion Audio Help Pronunciation[dis-uh-loo-shuhn] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. the act or process of resolving or dissolving into parts or elements.
2. the resulting state.
3. the undoing or breaking of a bond, tie, union, partnership, etc.
4. the breaking up of an assembly or organization; dismissal; dispersal.
5. Government. an order issued by the head of a state terminating a parliament and necessitating a new election.
6. death; decease.
7. a bringing or coming to an end; disintegration; decay; termination.
8. legal termination, esp. of business activity, with the final distribution of assets, the fixing of liabilities, etc.


so there you have it exactly the meaning of how he feels about our marriage.
Nice huh?!

Stings like hell.

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