So he WANTS her? MY ASS!

I cant see past my tears....

So today ( Saturday May 24th ) is his scheduled day to have his daughter, and after him saying he doesnt get why I specified 2 days a month ( 1 saturday every other week ) and that I am so bad for not letting him see her. [Keep in mind I had to specify a minimum for the courts hence my 2 days - since thats about what he see's her now - anyway ] he again is a no show!

ok back to my story

I showed up at his place expecting to drop her off as planned at 9 am and guess who's not home! Low and behold.
This stings. It stings that he says one thing but his actions show another.
Last month he missed a visit cause he was out with someone....

now this was scheduled and he is out god knows what?!

He was yet again at the bar lastnight ( if you knew whats going on - remember hes been going to the bar ALOT and even on a couple of occassions had to get motel rooms ( one on my credit card for another woman! ) and now hes not there. I opened the garage, and no motorcycle. So.....
I guess I can figure what and where he is huh?
The bank account is full of charges from bars from him ... and its a every other day thing at least.

I am kinda glad though cause I may need them some day in court.

I hope the other girl is worth it. I hope the drink is worth it.

I dont know what kind of girl it is since last nights adventure was at trick shots ( a sleeze bar ) and hes been hanging out at other sleeze bars too... like bottoms up, volcano, etc.

Nice..

Can someone please remind me why i love him?

And can someone please tell me how to explain this to our daughter. " Daddy loves you hunny but hes just too busy getting drunk, laid and unresponsible to make sure he has his day with you " Of course I cannot tell her that but you shoulda seen the look on her face when I loaded her back into the car to head back home after making a big deal of seeing daddy.

I hope he knows what hes doing. I hope he knows how much it hurts.

Maybe I really should let him go - and fuck things up so bad I wont be here.
After all its what he wants?!


CRUSHED!

poor daya!