When your world crashes?

I keep wondering how people manage to live when their world crashes down?

So When your world crashes what do you do? MY WORLD was my husband and my daughter and now i only have my daughter. Friends who have been through this till me that each day I will find a new peice of me and before I know it I will feel ok again, but right now all i can feel is....well, NOTHING. Litterally numb. The tears flow without thinking about anything, my face is swollen from the pure hell im feeling inside, my guts are wrenced and the one thing i want the most cannot even hear me screaming! Not that it would do anything at all but I feel like I am suffering alone ya know?!

Will i go on? And be able to love as much again? Can someone love me? My daughter? etc? Where will i live, what will i do... will he come back to me? All these things run through my mind and all because the 1 thing i wanted couldnt happen.

I only wanted him home, to work to live to cycle as a normal couple. To come home at night or whenever to know that I too needed him as much as he needed me. But alas, the love of being gone and the fear that hes not lovable had gotten the best of him. I feel soooooo soooooo - ( to be filled in when i can feel ).

When your world crashes and you dont know what to do with it all you just keep reminding yourself to breath - even when it hurts, put one foot infront of the other even when you cant remember where you last stepped and to stay focuses even when you cannot think of anything to focus on.

...... at least thats what Im going to try to do.