Yesterday Today and Tomorrow

Welcome once again to a re-done reorganized blog... big changes in store.

Origininally a few years ago I started this blog through a hard time, evolved it into a family blog, and now will reclaim this as primarily my blog.

It is truely my Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.



The man I love, and was married to for close to 10 years has again decided to leave us. So with this please deal with me as we transition and find our wings.



Please keep any and all comments nice - as I do not have hard feelings at this time to him - only confusion, frustration and hurt.



Keep reading - this will be great therapy!!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

My Lucky Lovey Dovey Post

Had to spread some love ... and a lil luck for today :)


Im so in love and lucky to have my hubby.

You know I was thinking I dont share much lately about him. Mainly because that was one of our rules. He didnt care for me telling every lil thing... so I just watch what I post to the blog or to my boards now alot better.

Anyways, things for the most part ( 99.9% ) have been wonderful and were working hard daily on this wonderful marriage that we have created and grown. There is a .2% where we go astray and the nasty old habbits creep up, but nothing compared to how it was.

That being said we had a blow up the other night. Both of us just not " getting what we needed ", In terms of affection, communication. We agreed we need to step this up. We dont know what were missing if we dont tell the other. So amungst other issues of ours - I told him I have alot weighing on me - no pun intended. Madaya has been very sick for 3 weeks. Ive slept very little, Im stressed, feeling unsettled, missing him dearly ( hes been working extra ) and im dealing with this rollercoaster of a WLS journey.

In regards to the WLS, he didnt realize what implications it was causing by him saying lil things here and there or not showing interest in it much has had on me... Anyways hes been much better and so much more considerate of me, my needs, and my wants for OUR future after my new birthday ( thats what were dubbing my surgery! ).


He said this morning that when he gets home were going to get some things wrapped up. I was so excited to hear him say that because its showing to me he DOES CARE AND WANT TO HELP TOO!

He told me tonight were going to get our patio stuff put on layaway, and our garage door opener picked out and ordered. Now i know thats not on MY to do list before next friday but its sweet that he thought of those things. And hes right - 2 very important things I want a part in and need. ( I wont be able to lift the garage door for about 12 weeks?! and we need to pay little weekly on a major puchase so we dont stress ) Hes also going to help get the garage unpacked and situated this weekend :)

Hes just being a love. Hes seriously so wonderful sometimes he makes me melt all over again.


Im so proud of him for all hes been doing with work ( hes working towards a management job there to be home even more ) but hes home 3 days a week now, and only working 4pm-4pm. So its NICE! Money hasnt been bad at around 900 a week, after taxes. I know hes got to be proud of himself. thats 1/2 of what he was making before but so much more rewarding in the home time, and quality of life. He sacrifices alot, and sometimes I need to slow down and look at that from all directions. I really am lucky to have him, and he I.


Seems like Love and Luck go well together!

ok ... enough mush, right.

We also made the decission to sell most of the baby clothes etc ( minus the preemie stuff - hard to come by stuff - and needs ) at the JustBetweenFriends sale. We have been saving them but in all likely hood they wouldnt be much good after being stored for what were guessing to be about 5 years by the time we need them ( 2 years now + 2-3 from now on ).

We will save the crib, furniture but all else can be replaced?!

We will also be thinning out her toys... were simplifying her too. She needs to learn to be creative not rely on having all this shit. We dont - she dont! Period. Im happy practicing green and simple ways and want her to learn too! ( NO FLAMES PLEASE ).

So I need to be busy tagging those things cause its 2 weeks post -op!!! AHH! - I know kinda crazy to take all that on too - but it will help keep my mind off other things - like not eating :).


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