Yesterday Today and Tomorrow

Welcome once again to a re-done reorganized blog... big changes in store.

Origininally a few years ago I started this blog through a hard time, evolved it into a family blog, and now will reclaim this as primarily my blog.

It is truely my Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.



The man I love, and was married to for close to 10 years has again decided to leave us. So with this please deal with me as we transition and find our wings.



Please keep any and all comments nice - as I do not have hard feelings at this time to him - only confusion, frustration and hurt.



Keep reading - this will be great therapy!!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

WLS update : Phsycologist Evaluation

I had my head examined :P

No seriously a requirement of my insurance for the surgery is that I have a Physcological evaluation. I am guessing from what I have heard its to establish how educated and prepared I am to take on such a life changing thing.
I was prepared for all she had to ask...
what I wasnt prepared for is what she REALLY asked.
It was hard to recall for her my past 10-15 years of all I have been going through. She asked about anything from my health prior to my original weight gain, to our miscarriages and pregnancy and birth of Madaya.
The session was 90 minutes of intense questions, and I was a mess when I left.
I thought maybe this was all I had to do - and was puzzled as to why this stuff mattered.
Then Dr. P said " I dont normally work on Monday's but I would like to see you back here at 1pm Monday to finish this up - we will meet for 2-3 hours! "

I agreed, went to the car, and headed home.
On my way I got to thinking. Why? Why do I need to go back - Is something wrong with me. I mean I know I am an emotional mess, but not over the surgery or the things Im taking on. I was crying on 3 major things :
- Infertility and the struggles we had along with that.
- My recent changes in life : home, love, friends, family etc.
- My weight - and self image.

All that is to be expected right? I mean this stuff is hard!

So Monday January 19th I will meet with Dr. P again for her time stated, and hopefully will wrap up the evaluation. This is by all means the very last step - before approval.

Next Up :

- Meeting with Phsyc. Monday Jan 19th
- Attend 1 support group meeting Thursday January 15th 6pm
- Send off to Insurance ( hopefully late week 2oth-24th? )
- Wait for answer ( 24-48 hours from blue cross )
- Pre Op Appointment
- Operation

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