I think I can sense something...

My bestfriend is going through something major, or at least I think so?! But how can I know... you know?! Beyond knowing?!
She seems to be going through ALOT. more than I bet I can think or imagine. But I cant be there to help because were not super duper close right now!
Maybe thats whats wrong.. maybe this is what I am missing. I honestly dont know but I do know that when I see her, I feel like something is not quite right.
I miss chatting, I miss hanging out and I even miss doing nothing.
Simply put - I wonder if I am missed?!

Anxiety thought : We have a vacay coming up and honestly I am soooo excited about it but what if I am reading way too much into it.
Is this right? Will it be ok?! Does she want this too?!

Counselor thought : is that our lives are just so very busy, and each in their own ways. But in the end were so alike its not even funny, and when we are together sometimes it feels perfect and we can just pick right up where we left off - I like those times :).
I am a home body - she likes to go, but is learning to stay home more it sounds.
I like to tend to my husband and daughter - she has her hubby and her.
I have no big social life or friends I see often - she has a huge social life and many friends she sees alot.
I am older and having to live as though I am not - she is younger but wise beyond her years.
I am routine and very set in my ways - she is flexible but likes a little bit of a routine.
I am strong - she can be stronger
Many dont like me - Many LOVE her.

but it all adds up to one thing : Shes my best friend.
And its me whos struggling to find how I fit in there....

Normal thought : I hope she knows how much she is worth to herself and to others, including me. I hope she knows just what she has in each friend as shes so blessed and just how much she has blessed me. I hope she knows that each day although I miss her more... I'm still there. And maybe when theres no one else, Ill be there too. We love you guys!