Another Angel BABY :(

Where to I begin?

I guess with .... Before some of you hear this through the grapevine, i think you should know mike and I are dealing with another loss.

Its been confirmed ( very small chance baby could make it ) that a lil angel of ours will not be joining us in November.

I know I know.. your saying : why didnt they tell us?!

Well honestly a combination of things... 1.) We werent trying. 2.) We didnt know until i was " late " by about 2 weeks. I didnt think anything of it, as I just went off the pill,never cycle normally and have been dealing with other crap etc. I tested ++ at home and then had blood done. blood test says pregnant but levels arent good. ( this isnt uncommon for me and has happend alot ) then theres 3.) we really do want another year or two between the kiddos. While I am excited and open to it Mike really would like to wait and has many reservations.

We had hopes of not telling anyone till about 10+ weeks. and its things that happen like this for our reasoning - however some have asked, so there you have it.

Ironicly this lil bean woulda been due Nov 2, and had baby around 35 weeks on or before oct 4th! Same time as daya, along with the last 3 babies weve lost. I seem to be fertile in february and apparently must keep michael away ;)

We were not trying, are not trying, and really are not ready for another but it doesnt lesson the blow any!

Looks like angel 10 is sure to have good things in store for us to come.



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