A blogger I will be?

my mind is going on and i cannot sleep.

Today has been a busy day. We worked on the yard, cleaned the house, did some laundry and tried to keep roo happy - momma looks like a walking 1 woman circus!

Tonight I was online and bored, But glad i was cause i FINALLY got to talk to my SIL ( the one i mentioned in some blogs you with accsess can see ) . She is well, and feeling better she says.
It was so nice to catch up with her since shes one of whom we are on great terms with and we have a mutual respect for one another- its been awhile.

At one point I was clued in as to if we had been invited to one of our nephews b-day party. My reply was NO. We havent heard anything... I wasnt thinking this would bother me, and it really comes as no shocker that we werent invited - but whats killin me is that we love our nephews and neices very much and no matter what or who we do like to see them, love them and see their special moments when we can,
so yes, this is hurting. I dont know why we werent invited or even why Mike wasnt -- I know that I am not liked, but damn didnt think this would happen. Mike could have at least gone, but i doubt he would have with out me or his daughter. Those kids mean alot to us, and they claim to love our child too... so im lost. Will they want to show for dayas party?! or should i waste my time?

I guess ill leave it in gods hands. Maybe theres a reason. I know the inlaws are gonna be in town, and in all fairness maybe this is why the mom didnt invite us.. maybe she was doing it out of respect knowing it would make it uncomfy and awkward givin the situations of past, and present? I dont know. I dont even know if this is when they are said to be here.

Other than that my mind is going 100 miles a minute. Mike is due home in a week exactly and I am very much aticipating his arrival. Its been a long time and I have butterflies in my tummy. Its lonely with out him and its been very stressful as of late, so i know in my heart its time we connect on a level thats been long coming! I cannot wait . Sometimes i feel so lost and lonely and I sure get tired of being alone! Sure i have people around, but no one fills his spot or even close- sometimes all i long for is his touch, his voice, his company. -- ooh i wanna sleep it all away till he gets here so time flies!

Brees wedding is 9 days away and I am so excited over that - shes been sick and i dont know if its from nerves or what but man i hope shes feeling better soon. Im so close to her and it makes me sad to think shes ailing.

All at the same time Mikes lil bro is said to be in town that week - and mike and I are hoping to see him at least for a little while. We love that lil man and its been so long ( since we moved ) . We have no ill feelings for him and nor do we make him a part of the issues with mike and his dad - hes much to young and has nothing to do with this. Were hoping to see him but time will tell...

I suppose i should run to bed. Im beat and daya has a apt with dr in the morning. Shes not acting like her self and has some things going on... praying all is well.

Until next time,

A Blogger I will be.